The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
You know I still remember when you use to make me mad... the only time you did something sweet or nice was when I was upset. I didn't realize all the mistakes I was making. You have been the only person I ever allowed deep into my mind. You knew me,you figured me out, you manipulated me, and at the end you used my own mind against me. I was so naive... You made me believe love existed and that that was the only form of love. As I was falling more in love, you were falling less in love... I was truly innocent and pure... I don't know why I was blinded. You desensitized my feelings by pushing the threshold...I let it happen... I thought that if I was there for you, you would eventually come back to me. I lost you before you wife ever came in the picture. You couldn't leave me yet because you wanted someone to be there for you. And I didn't leave you because I wanted you there with me. I just wanted what you promised me... The thing that hurt the most is that you thought I lied and to be frank I never did. You broke promises and you know what? I never did. A promise to a person I love means more than anything. All my promises were done and completed. Call me a liar but when I finally broke one it was a promise I made to myself, the worst mistake I ever did. I don't hate you or ever will... even when i thought I did it was just my sadness pretending so I would not feel anymore. You were gifted in manipulation and control. You did cause me a lot of pain but you were just a the vessel who was acting it out... it was my fault. I didn't have the nerve to even break up with you. I thought if I did I would be alone. Now, I see I should have done it in the end I would still be in the same position except maybe a bit different. I hate to think of the "what-ifs" because there is no point, what happened happened... The pain you cause will never be reversible and truly people who try to come into my life pay the price. But, in the end thank you! NO others words say more than thank you! Without you I wouldn't have learn half of the things I know now... Without you I don't think I would have been able to question things and do what I needed to be more like myself. "weird" I know you still think I am but that's okay...
BTW - feel free to read the other days if you're interested... They're all linked :)
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Day 1 - Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
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