Weird

I know so many weird things have been happening. Well not really happening but since I was sick but weird combinations of being sick... I guess I'm not use to being sick like that. Right now the thing that is bugging me the most and I am sincerely honest are my boobs. 

Yeah, my boobs. They're super tender. I can't do anything. I never realized how much impact they had on a daily basis. Danny with his hugs and jumping on me... or even just me slighting hitting them or bumping into something...

Maybe I worry too much about minor things but I just tapped them or touched them and I feel it. I know it's not normal because they shouldn't be growing then again if they are... I wouldn't mind a couple more sizes :) lol I doubt it though but I guess from all of this it's nothing to hope for thinking of the best always... right? Oh well that's unexplained... and what would I tell a Dr anyways... "My boobs are really tender! What's wrong with them?" and they'll ask me a lot of questions and leave without an answer... lol 

Another weird thing is my lower back gets worn really quickly now when I drive... Maybe I hit 26 and I am getting old... 

*cough*

Was having the most wonderful dream designing my perfect wedding dress. So many details was being picky about just about everything. Just wedding planning and everything... it was beautiful. Decided how I wanted my bouquet with white roses and lily's and decoration with red and white roses.  And I even had a dream about this guy I don't know who he is but he worked as some motivational speaker or I don't know. And we were talking... so much stuff was going on...

and then I wake up coughing... and i couldn't sleep the rest of the night. As much as I tried getting back into my dreams there just red flashing lights and I just couldn't fall asleep. it was tough so I get up bc it was like 6:40am so time to take the bros to school and my dad tells me he is taking them. I was surprised but hey if he said so I tried to go back to sleep. I did. I got up right before 9 and I asked my mom how my dad decided to take my bros. She said that he heard me coughing all night. he was going to leave to work early but couldn't leave. How sweet! He looks worried! This shit better leave and quick bc if it doesn't my dad is going to sick I know how he is, he doesn't mean it but he cares to much.

I woke up with a small headache on the left side of my head... fml!!! But, I need to do what I need to do today...

evening ... :/

I do thank goodness my mom was right there. It was so strange everything was getting  a bit blurry with black edges. And she calls my dad... I didn't quite know what was going on but it was a strange helpless feeling...My mom says I was about to faint and I was very pale.They  helped me from the kitchen to the living room. And then... I started a really sound statically sound...it started getting louder... That was the weirdest thing in the world. But I went to go buy some groceries right before and took one of my brothers and Danny bc Danny really wanted a sandwich. And the whole time there I just wanted to throw up but I know I couldn't. This is all so weird...

My parents want to take me to the doctor but there is no point right now. I mean we don't have the money and I don't need another thing on my record. I can't pay it and I am sure it will go away. I told my mom if I still feel sick them thursday bc I have to work so we can go after... idk but I mean friday I have to go to a deposition. Opposing side will ask questions and take my testimony... it's annoying...

My mom going to bed said if you need to go to the dr just call me bc you coming will take longer... just call...

I hate to see them worry so much... I don't need them stressed  but I am also not faking...and Danny just keeps giving me lots of hugs and kisses... a lot lol I have been bombarded and I am not use to so much affection but it's sweet he cares and tries to help mommy while she is sick 

Oct 2010

We've all been waiting for this for the longest time. :) We can finally post pictures after such a long time. Yay! Amber and Chris Murray's Wedding. You can watch it on WeTv tomorrow... if you have satellite/dish at 6pm or 9pm everything else. yay!! It was a true privilege to me in the wedding party and be a bride's maid! I can't wait! =D

Pobre Diabla

Pobre diabla se dice que se te
a visto por la calle vagando llorando
por un hombre que no vale un centavo
pobre diabla llora por un pobre diablo.

Que note valorizo nunca
y que nunca lo hara
que solo te hizo llorar
pero tu lo amas
que no te valorizo
cuando con besos te hechizo
que solo te utilizo
y hasta te embarazo.


I found this snip bit of this song 
that I remember my sister dedicated 
to me way back in the past when I ended 
up pregnant. 

Baby Nephew was born R.A.F

In my family we're all so excited. My brother had his little son. He is a blessing like all children are :) Baby Roland Antonio Flores was born on Monday January 3rd, 2011. I was a little worry the baby was going to be born on a school day especially for my bro. He has already missed so many school days and I am really pushing for him to graduate. Well Sunday night, it started snowing up here in the high desert. My brothers had mentioned that if it snows 2+ inches the schools cancel bc the buses are not equipped for snow since it rarely snows. So I go on their school website and sure enough school was canceled. It was suppose to be the first day of classes back and he lucked out so that he didn't miss the birth of his baby boy and didn't have to miss the first day of classes back. The baby was born at 12:34pm which I don't know how to explain but to me is a big deal bc for some reason12:34 am and pm always follows me so to me it's a special time. This baby is also the first baby boy into the Flores family to actually get the last name handed down... none of my other cousins with Flores last name (boys) have kids...we're all girls who have kids therefore all of our kids have difference last names. The first 4th generation to be able to pass the last name down. My dad is super excited and my brothers are amongst some of the younger cousins...
At the moment the baby was born it was snowing :) And the weird/funny/special part also was that this baby was the first baby to be born in the hospital for the year. I know, it was the 3rd and he was the first baby... so the hospital gave the baby a huge basket with baby stuff and it also came with 2 glasses and champagne for the parents :)  They are going to come out in the newspaper also... they're truly blessed

Sick

Haven't felt so sick as I do in this very moment... ugh... well since last night. Started with my throat feeling a lil weird yesterday right before I went to pick up my mom at like 6:30. When we got home at 8p it was like it had fallen on me completely. I went to bed... technically been in bed since yesterday... it hurts to move but I am tired of laying down also.  

Started with a head ache, a weak stomach like I wanted to throw-up but couldn't or it felt a lil weird a bit indescribable , light headed, whole body hurts, lower back aches,  I can't eat... everything sucks...  I made myself eat some sweet potatoes...I wanted cereal but I wouldn't be able to handle milk 

The worst as always is my lower back I hate when it hurts... and it's only hurt like this now and a few months ago...