So today I took mom to church and and on the way home I smoked a cigarette. I felt like a different person. Almost as though the way that I felt yesterday like crying didn't matter today... I felt like in charge a bit upset but powerful... I don't know...hahaha!

So today I spent the day making Chile Rellenos... It was a lot of work but man was is satisfying.
I don't mind cooking I like it a lot but when I cook I usually have to do it all day. Well I guess it's because I have to do everything including the preping and the cooking and the serving. Sometimes I don't mind but other times I feel exhausted after the preping. Today I did everything and well it took a really long time and thank goodness that my mom helped me cut the onion and the jalapenos...

These last couple of days I've been feeling a little sad and down. I am not sure why but I feel like crying and yelling at the top of my lungs. Sometimes I feel hopeless and lonely but I know that it could very well be the hormones which are flowign through my body.... Arg!!!

I was just thinking... maybe that's why I slept until 10am... I took those 3 Montrin.... hmmm... interesting... oh well

Last night I went to my appointment and was on time of course. It started at 6pm. Well we talked about the Clean-9 and the infections and long term problems that come from constipation and eating wrong. I spoke to her about our marketing plan and how you can start getting money back. She told me that she wants to help me sell but I told her I want her to do her first 2 CC (case credit) so she can start signing people up. She mentioned to me that she had been trying to sell stuff and considered Avon, and even selling Gold.... and had even tried the products of Sunshine but they were a little too pricey for her range and when she found our company she liked how long the company had been going for, the products were affordable and  they were all natural. She said she had never considered selling natural products before but she liked what she was hearing. I signed her up online got her Distributor ID and password fast and I showed her how to look at the website and learn more things. She has a big opportunity she just has to take advantage now. Right now she is going to start the Clean-9 tomorrow morning and she is going to be calling me and I will be calling her. She will be doing a detoxification so I know I am going to be directing her on how she feels.

I also took my Sonya colour Collection and she tried the products. She really liked how natural the make-up felt on the skin and how it didn't feel heavy. I put on some light colors, very natural for daily use especially going to work. We have wonderful make-up and nobody knows about it... But one person at a time...  

Cramps.....

Is there more to that?

Oh yeah... moods!

I just got back from my meeting and I had the opportunity to talk about the marketing plan.... It was fast and easy. I know I know how to explain everything and work with everything but now I need to practice what I preach... I need to make money but tomorrow I have an appointment and I will have another one soon.

So I am quite happy that I am still feeling my face better and still getting compliments about it. I mean I feel the change and I could see it. One,  my face is not lumpy and secondly my make-up goes on smoothly which is one thing that I have always struggles with. Well I am going to give you my little secret.

 

I firstly get like a little dime of each in my hand and mix them with my finger. Once I mix them I put the lotion on and let it tingle and penetrate in my face.
After it's in my face I then put on...

R3 Factor
Retain, Restore and Renew
This one I just put in my face and just as well let it settle in and I then put on my foundation...

These are the few that have created a small change and to be honest a little more confidant. A nice face equals a happy me...   

Decision and sad news

well I decided to do something for Lent and I know that if I don't write it down I wont commit to it. There was one teacher that really helped us and made a huge difference. She was our Music Theory teacher and the class with her was fun and educational! Dr. Jelliffe, she is battling with Colon cancer and I heard she is in and out of comas. Firstly, We need prayers for her. Secondly, what I am going to do is a Rosary a day starting later on tonight for her. I know how hard it is to loose a close person from cancer since I just lost my grandfather from it in December. May God hear our prayers!

Danny has been asking me for some cupcakes so I made him some. And well my mom wanted me to make some enchiladas but we don't have tortillas so I made the sauce and I am going to have to go to the store and buy some onions and some tortillas and well after that I have to go to Kaiser... and maybe go to church. I think I am taking Danny to school because my mom is in Santa Fe Springs... Sigh... Sometimes I just run out of time to do some things... even when I have all day...

I am stuck... Still as usual I wake up and do work because people call me and ask me questions... sometimes it sucks but hey what can be about it. Now Lent is here... It's Ash Wednesday and I don't know what to do? I know I need to give up something but I don't know. Well I kind of do and in another sense I don't. Yesterday I was so stressed I went out and bought me a pack of cigs... I know I shouldn't have but then again everyone in a while it releases some stress...  I was a little disappointed though becuase they didn't have the Blacks the I wanted but they had the Blacks light so I got those. I guess they should be pretty close to each other. I don't know. I am not an active smoker but every rare day I just crave one... So yeah... It's not like I can give that up when I haven't even done it yet or had any in more than a year... hmmm... What a dilema!

I don't know how I feel at this moment but it's not great! I don't feel a little stuck and I don't like feeling like this. Sometimes I feel so trapped and other times I feel like I want more like i need to get out. I need to get out more I am growing "desperada" ... Sometimes I want to cry, sometimes I try and hang out with friends but sometimes I am just lonely. And then I feels sad again at the thought that I could be lonely whether it can or can't be true. I don't know what to think or what to hope for.  Why so I feel like this... Well sometimes I know why but I know all I can do is wait and wait. But yeah... sigh....

You know what I came back from the Rally and I am very excited. I have an appointment on thursday at 6pm and I pretty much closed her over the phone. I am just going to go and explain the way our marketing plan works because she is interested in the business. Once that is completed she is already going to buy product so we'll get that going and I am on my way to becoming a Supervisor to go to the Manager position. I need more motivation but this begining is the best way to go. :D

Finishing last minute work things I had to do before i left to the trip on friday morning. I am so tired and I know I have some calls to return. I had fun but it was so exhausting this weekend. I hope I don't ever have to do some things I had to be responsible for... not fun. But finishing and then I'll go to bed I missed my son so much! I don't know if I've be able to go to Vegas next weekend. I would love it but It's hard. Well I am hoping for Dallas, Texas this August and Florida in February. I know with the help of God anything is posible. Also, I am so excited because I was invited along with my family to go to Dinner at the Boss' house with His wife and him. I have gone before but to actually be invited to Dinner. I think my parents will enjoy the treat! 

Well I leave tomorrow night for a few days. I think I'll be back on Saturday or Sunday morning... It should be fun, well I hope. I am going to try and make some connections... business connections or something but the Friday night Dinner should be wonderful!

No time

There was no time to vent on my emotions from yesterday. Maybe tomorrow. Going to sleep.

Well I guess you can say that yesterday wasn't so bad afterall. Woke up and got ready to go to a wedding but since i drive even though I was ready early we still left later than I liked... And then after we got back we had a few hours before heading out to Hemet for the reception. Well we couldn't find the invitation. So... mom blamed me, of course. I do remember I was looking up the places the day before but I also very clearly remember giving it back to my mom and saying, " Here mom take, before it gets lost and I get blamed" ironically by me saying I got blamed for loosing it even though I handed it over to her hands. We were in a huge discussion and it was useless because all we were doing was pointing fingers back and forth... I gave up and kept looking for it. We wanted to be at the party at 5 and got there at 7 so there was more tension as you can imagine...  But other than that it was ok... Parents got into their routine fight or argument I ignore and we keep leading our happy lifes... I know, a bit disfuctional but oh well... The mass ceremony was beautiful... it was sweet, heart warming and very compelling at time, enough for a tear drop ... The day had it's bumps in the road but I think it was a good day... overall...

Well I just went to go see Underworld: Rise of the Lycans. It was pretty awesome. I went to go see it with Nestor and it made me want to see the first two. After that we went to go get some coffee to stay warm because it was freezing out there. But I had so much fun. I don't remember the last time I had so much fun and the thing I enjoyed the most is that we have so many things in common which before we use to argue and debate. We had so many disagreement but I don't know what has changed maybe time and the fact we hadn't talked in a while. So after we went to go pick up Danny from my aunt's house and headed home. I really did have fun and I we laughed so much... We just reminiscence on the old years. I know I will always be grateful for him! If it wasn't for him I wouldn't have gotten home the day Danny was going to be born.

When I got home I found out that my little brothers' friend or best friend drank so much that he was unconscious and I guess an ambulance came down to the house so they took him in to check he is fine. Man I can't believe they are that stupid!?! Last time it was my brothers. They are 16 and they are so stupid... They are hurting their liver but most of that they make us worry.

Well Danny, my sister and her bf were all playing fighting it was cute. They were jumping around and fighting. I don't know just watching with so much energy was a night full of laughter.

And well it sounds like I am going to get a handful of yelling because I left Danny with my aunt. Well what am I suppose to do. stay home all the time and not do anything? It sucks that I can't do a single thing without being told what to do. I don't have a life and I do like to have a little fun... what was 3 hours at my aunt's house? Is it that bad... I don't know why my mom is so judgmental?  See she never lets me do anything, or if I want to have a little fun I can't because she wont watch him... WTF! What am I suppose to do if I can't trust family. I a guess I should be looking forward to a spoon full of yelling. Great! A wonderful day and night ruined by a sometimes "unhappy" person. I don't understand why she can't see me be a little happy and working... Nothing I can do will ever be good enough... What am I going to go? I know I am suppose to wait patiently and I hope that it will turn out for the best which I don't doubt but at times I just don't want to hear the yelling. I can't stand it. I do it all and nobody else helps...yeah is that not good enough to have a little time for my self? Is it not? I don't know... I guess that is my fault... It's always my fault for it all... but you know what? I don't care and I think that is what makes her more mad, that I have gotten desensitized to her yelling and complaining. What am I suppose to do with all that negativity coming my way. I am starting to be positive but why wont she let me? That is one thing I don't understand... Another thing is that the few times I do get complimented well she manages to turn it into something else... something that puts me down and makes me feel negative. I hate feeling that way and for that reason I don't want a boyfriend because I get one and well there is my family. I am not embarrassed but I will be a little hard for the future person... *sigh* I guess the only thing I can do is pray and hope the best and keep moving forward. Nothing good ever comes back from living in a sad beginning.

I need to dry and I have no money what so ever. I feel a little stuck...  It's raining outside so it's not like I can just dry the clothes in the sun where there is none. I know my mom has to dry as well but if she dries my clothes as well she will still say things about my un-usefulness..( which is not a word) I know my boss is paying my cell phone which I have by now gone over like 70 minutes of my plan... that $30+ and I can't not answer it if it's work you? So I haven't received any money in a while. Is it right to ask him for money if I haven't received in like a month and well he is paying my phone...??! I don't know but I feel bad asking but at the same time it's not like a can live off working without getting money in return... HE's a good guy but I am also a mommy in need... what a predicament...

I am starting to feel the pressure again. Yeah, it's mostly from my mom. I guess when I take her to her meetings I don't know what she thinks. I spend a lot of time to take her, and make her happy. I am also doing work there. I am training to do what she wants me to do and it has never been too much what I want. I want a regular job which I kind of have 2 besides thinking about the business part. I have a lot of pressure and there she goes telling me I am doing nothing for myself. I do nothing for my son. I am working on work and tyring to get the money in. It's a little slow but I am tired, I am frustrated, I cried today. Not because of what she said because I care less what she says not it was because I try so hard to make her happy. I am trying to get money so I don't have to depend of them. She doesn't see that. I want to start earning money be on good standing with all my debts and move out. But, this time I am not going to tell her my future plan because I end up being an "ingrate" and you know what I am not. I love them they have done so much for me but she holds me back so much. I don't say that because I don't want to hurt her feelings. I spare her feelings because I feel guilty. I know it's her way of manipulation but I know that if I wait things will get better and we all have to suffer. I have hopes and I see a great future in front of me and I do not want anyone... I truly mean anyone to ruin that vision I have. I don't care if she says I act like a homeless which I don't. So what if we are running really short on money... and I can't buy the baby milk or all his needs. I know this rough time will get better. All I am waiting for is money that is coming. I know it is it's just taking a little longer. And I have to do my taxes which I have to pay for and I can't...

Well I have cooled off a little since I had to make some calls to people in the FLP Corporate Office and other info from people. Although I am already upset that I have gone over my minute limit for the month and it wont be reset until next Wednesday. As of now I am already $32 and some cents over and well since people call me and ask me questions it's a little hard to refrain from answering the phone plus I not home all the time to be using my phone as a pager. Man oh man what an issue. I might have to up my minutes on this phone but it seems as though he might get me a phone to work with but I don't know yet but I am still stuck. Well at least I am happy my plan covers unlimited everything else that I am very much taking advantage of... text, internet, and e-mail, navigator.
Well talking all the people I had to cooled me down a little and made me feel excited about the Rally next week.

My face

I am so happy people are giving more and more compliments on how my face looks. I mean I started wearing some creams now since last week but I didn't think people would start noticing it. I did so that my face feels better and hopefully I can get rid of those stupid pimple marking I have and I think they are making a huge difference. Well at least it shows in my face... YAY for foreverlivign Products! After I wash my face with the soft white soap and scrub, I then mix the Aloe Vera Gelly (which helps with scars) and Aloe Propolis cream(has natural antibotics)  and put it on my face. Then I put R3 which  is a cream to Retain, restore and renew. Then I put on my Sonya Foundation which is also an Aloe product. Who new it would make a difference in the eyes of others but that make me happy and it gives me new hope. YAY!

So, This morning I went to go see Ana and her little baby girl. Mila Nayobi. She is very cute. I was able to carry her the time I was there. She is so tiny, I miss having a little one in my arms but I don't know if I would be able to handle 2. Well maybe if i had someone there with me with support things would be different but we could never rush into those hopes. You know it feels nice I am able to talk to Ana a bit more. It's like a different type of trust I don't know but I thank God that she started talking to me and went through the obstacles and fought to gain my friendship although I know it was tough at first. Thanks, Ana! I know we had a tough beginning but I am hoping for a happy ending. 

So right after I went to see her I sped through the freeway to go to the complete opposite side in Norco for work. I got there in 35 mins which isn't too bad I thought.  I worked until like 2:30 and then When I got home I still work from my computer. I had to write notes and translate. Like I have said before I am kept very busy.

So anyways besides that point. I am still happy about going to the movies on friday. I guess it's not every single day I can go and with my friend. We were going to go last thursday but he had an interview, a long one for that matter. And then a few days ago I asked when his 3rd round interview was going to be since his last meeting was thursday I had a feeling it was going to be thursday again. And surely enough it was. I told him not to worry about getting together to catch up because with these times I surely understand what it is to get a job becuse I am still stuggling without money and without being able to pay my bills. It's hard but what can you do at times. Well when he said that I didn't even tell him about resheduling since next thursday I am going to be driving down to LA to my parents hotel room to spend the weekend for the Convention/ Rally. And to my surprised he suggested friday. I was happy he initiated that one because I almost wasn't anymore. You know there is a point where you kind of get a little sad and just give up. I always been one to try and push things and then I get disapointed and just leave everything and move on. Well it's something I have learned to do. But since he said... we're going to go and see Underworld. It should be a great movie.. I can't wait to see it... YAY for movies with an old friend!

I don't know but I am kind of excited about friday. Well I am going to hang out with a friend and well we haven't really talked in a while. I have seen him but not much dialogue. It should be fun... then saturday I will be in Hemet, and sunday my grandpa's mass... then next weekend in LA all weekend...

Ana's baby

I received a text at 7:10 am with the picture of a beautiful baby. Ana had her baby this morning at 7am. Besides her being tired from all these days in constant small pain and going through the night of an induced birth which speeds up the pains for the baby to come out faster she still managed to be able to text so show her baby was born. That is very admirable! Now my son has a little baby sister  and maybe he'll hold off on asking me for one, lol. Congrats Ana and thank you for letting me know. I had you in my prayers yesterday for everything to go well and as of now it seems as though it did. God Bless! 

These last few days for me have been so beautiful. I love seeing the rain and the wind. It just started raining and I am so happy. I know at times these days can be gloomy but overall they the best days. Although I forgot to mention. As I was falling asleep I think it was thursday or friday night my eyes were leaking.Well they were. I am not quite sure why ...and did I mention I cut my hair on the 2nd?

I get in a sense you can say I do it here on my xanga. When I start writing on here I just forget about everything else. That is pretty sad but until I find another activity this is going to have to do.

  
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So geez money is short... but I think in a couple of months I will be better. I know at times things are tough. So today I was asked by my boss if I had already laid out or picked out my outfits for the 20th and 21st. I almost didn't mean to laugh but come on I haven't bought clothes for me in a long time. Right now I only have 3 pairs of pants... blue, black and dressy black pants... can you imagine how much I wash those for I can make them work with my outfits. Not fun. I told him that I have a black dress for the Dinner at night.  So he told me to look out looking and if it's in his budget he'll give me a little extra so I really have to bargain shop to have clothes for that day. It's only 2 weeks away. He said that if his wife doesn't make it back from her nusiness trip and into LA I am going to sit with him at the dinner. His wife is also a business person and very busy. I guess she must travel a lot but he takes care of their son. They have such a beautiful realtionship, I admire them as a couple. But getting ready for that day is stressful but that soon will be over and then onto other things.

My issue right now is that Danny ran out of diapers and I know he finishs a box every 2 weeks as much as I push him to use the toilet. He uses his little toilet first thing in the morning and when he falls asleep and during the day but I don't now. He is improving but diapers are still running and sometimes I just don't ask his dad but other times I do. It's more like He buys then the next 2 weeks I buy and then I ask him again. I know it gets a little tight for both but what can I do. It means I am suppose try and buy my self but I have no money and haven't gotten any in almost a month. I think I am going to get some next week but to be sure? I haven't received anything from the district and I am waiting for that. I also need to do my taxes. $100 is something and I know I surely can use it for gas and Danny's supplies and I also have to try and figure some money out for Danny's babysitter. He only goes like once a week but that still like $25 for the day and my mom watches him the rest of the days but I guess when he gotta start working we need to start some how... I owe and owe and it's almost impossible at times.

So today I went a few hours to the office and then I went to Kaiser and taught one lesson. I thought it was a good lesson because i changed a lot of fingering this kid had because it would be faster and more effective the other way. So I today I gave all of my students their contract but the one today said that this was probably the only lesson he was going to have because his parents are very tight with money and I completely understand but it was very obvious that the lesson helped him. And honestly it would help these kids so much more if they did hour lessons but it's almost unreasonable to even say half an hour. Man how things are a little tough. I wish there were other ways. I don't know if I'll get anything back from my tax return and I'll probably end up having to pay to get it done so that sucks. Not getting anything and paying for it...  goodness...

Well it was weird but my friend Ana asked me today, " just wondering why you were emotionally confused???
idk.."

It was in my inbox. I don't know but yesterday I had put I was emotionally confused... weird thing to put but I wrote back to her, "I was a few days ago. Idk . . . I was feeling a little weird like a wanted a bf for a brief moment but that's over with. It was one of those irritating annoying feelings. Lol. . . I was just watching romantic flicks and sometimes we want whats unrealistic and sweet. So yea that's why i was feeding that way. :) i know weird huh. . . Haha"

There are brief moments in time or life where you just feel different and you sometimes can't explain. All you do is write down exactly what you feel. Although I can honestly say I do feel a little disappointed and down today.  I really wanted to go out and be out for a little but then again I am glad that I stayed home because the way I feel would have been irritated.  It's just that I get so tired of being home and now more than ever I just want to go out and hang out for a little while. I really don't care but I want to have fun.  All I do is do everything everybody needs and work and deal with people and I know I should relax. I think I've paid part of my dues. I have so many things on my mind and it's frustrating at times. I don't know what to talk about. Well I guess i was really confused because sure there are times I still think about being in a relationship in my future. There are times I feel sad and why wouldn't I, I mean I am by myself and sometimes that's just not enough. You know what I mean? Like any girl... who doesn't feel or get lonely. There are times we need support, someone to talk to, make us mad, relax... I don't know but at times to just miss everything it doesn't matter. At times we prefer being with our loved one... than being lonely. I know there is nothing I can do about that now but I have high hopes that I will meet someone compatible to me in the future. I also know it's in vain to think about it because it will happen when it should. Time cannot be sped up and I mean I am happy but I don't know. *shrug* 

What can I do? nothing... 

Well I didn't get to hang out with Nestor but maybe next week. Also, one student has canceled her lesson because she is going to move but it's alright for the time being I will still have 5 students. This time I do not mind the lessons because after this girl canceled hers that  means that I finish all my wednesdays, tuesdays and fridays nice and early.
 It's so weird because I feel unexceptionably exhausted. My legs hurt, and feel so heavy, I have this weird head ache but the worst thing is my legs... I don't know why but I am so so so tired. I am not sleepy but I feel so weak. My legs feel shaky... Hopefully  all is okay ... 
All I have to do is keep my fingers crossed for the other job. I send my resume yesterday and my cousin send it to the lady today and she send it to her Boss.
Today I was in contact with the Assistant Of Manager operations in The Main office in Scottadale, AZ and we spoke briefly about official business. I am almost officially Mr. Salina's Assistant. But with all the work I do I know it sometimes takes time for trial to see if people can handle and I think I am doing ok. :D Besides the everyday stresses, I am ok. :D

I am so tired and I know at times I can't take the sleeping less hours but I know once I start getting more money I will feel better. I am crossing my fingers and hoping for that job. I don't mind it being my 3rd job. I know I have 2 right now and it's very time consuming but another one wont hurt plus I need more experience and more work.

I am a little excited at going to see Nestor and hanging out with him. He has a job interview so I wish him the best of Luck. The more I analyze how things are going for the year the better I feel of how great this years I am hoping will be... I felt it when the year came in. This is going to be the year we all start doing and getting better. And thank God for friends...

I don't know what is wrong with me but I am having all these mixtures of feelings and I am to the point I almost want to cry. It makes no sense what so ever. I feel like this deep heart burning feeling and hate it. But the weird thing is that I have nothing in my heart... it's a weird feeling I am sure I have felt this before have I have nothing to gain or loose from anyone. It's almost becoming like this jealousy, uncomfortable feeling. I think it's beginning to past a little but I don't know I just can't put my finger on it and it bugs the shit out of me. This uncertainty is the worst feeling... I'm going to bed... I'm weird-ing my-self out ... didn't think it was possible....blah what ev...maybe I just need sleep.

I guess right now I am working on my transposition skills which by the way sucks. I haven't done anything like it in years. And well to start off I am doing it from Bassoon to Bass Clarinet. It's easy their both low instruments right. Well I had forgotten that first I had to read the bass note then move them from C concert to Bb concert which isn't hard. So I know right, what am I complaining about. I guess I am just using my brain so much lately that I have small brain freezes every once in a while and it sucks... I have to keep numbers, dates, people, e-mails, credit card numbers, presentations, bios... all in my head and make sure it's all straight. I am going to go insane at times... But... yeah there is a but... I love it. I love being tired and busy but I still hate the fact that I am still broke. But, on the bright side I am going to meet up with a friend on thursday after work and we're going to hang out and talk... hopefully just me and him. Like I said, it's time I focused on other people but my family now. It's time for me time and "me time" is going to be friends and work... and many, many people. I need the busy life... So onto more sheet music...

Man, it's been hurting. My right side in my back side. I don't know if it's my kidney this time or if it's not. This time I can't tell but I have been hurting since yesterday and I am sore... I am tired. Yesterday I barely had any food so I was shuting down everywhere. I would be falling asleep and good periods of time. I don't know maybe I am just exhausted and a little stressed or something...

They fuckin disconnected my phone again. This is bullshit. Every single time they are doing is 3 days earlier and I was going to call them yesterday for payment arrangements and they beat me to the fuckin punch. So I woke up today and saw my phone with no e-mail little announcement and I thought "oh shit,  my phone is gone" so I tried texting my sis who was sitting next me and nothing. I called and they said well you can call 24 hours a day. They always change what you can call till 9 and what is 24 hours a day. I don't know but she said that if I agree to pay the full amount by the 9th which she can't do because I don't have to pay the rest of the phone until the 13th. This is crap she reconnected and she can't waive the charge which I am was trying to avoid this month. And there it is in the last few months they have been charging me $20 extra... $5 late fee and $15 for reconnection fee. So, it's so upsetting, do you know what i am saying...

So, my friend Adam came today and well thank goodness he was able to download MS into my computer but now I have to wait for a valid code. But, for the mean time I can still use it so I am happy. It was kind of nice. We got to talk and catch up on a lot of things I hadn't seem or spoken to him in years and I thought about him like last week and got in contact with him. It's always nice to catch up. This girlfriend was a little jealous but I mean I only met her for the first time yesterday but she is a very nice and sweet girl. Her boy and Danny got along well, I was amazed. So for now this is it but I am happy I have MS...YAY!

So I just got home and well I actually had a pretty good evening. I went over to an old friend's house,Adam. Well primarily it was out of business to get the MS cd but it ended up being a little social. I didn't think it was going to be today but well today was his birthday so he turned 24. Man how we're getting old.  Well I got to meet his girlfriend and I also saw Sam and met his girlfriend. They are all nice I was very happy to go and meet knew people. You would have thought me needing something would deal me to meet new people but hey it was wonderful. We were talking about wine tasting and Renaissance fair which both sound very fun. I felt very comfortable with both Adam and his girlfriend. I hadn't seen him though since my baby shower. Yeah, over 3 years but I am  glad I still had his number on my cell. I always enjoyed their intellect talks. I had a very nice conversation with his mom and advice since she works for the Fontana Unified School District. She is the sweetest lady and still talked to me as it was yesterday I was in her house for the last time. It had probably been well over 7 years... man oh man time flies... well I am tired and I have to wake up early...

So I am actually very happy. Well my boss 1.) my boss invited me to go to a Super Bowl party with his wife, him and their friends. 2.) He asked me what my phone bill was like and well I am not sure but all I know is that I've been a month behind for quite some time now. I will not get my phone disconnected this time. YAY! Although, unfortunately I cannot go because I have prior commitment. One I found a friend I hadn't spoke to in years and he is going to let me borrow his Microsoft Office and well I just realize that tomorrow is his birthday too... maybe he forgot, lol. No he probably didn't but it's sweet that he is going to let me borrow it. And secondly, we have my grandpa's rosary every sunday. Once that is over after the 15th I can take Danny to go see a movie and I wont be as busy on weekends too... I haveno time and I am trying to get a real job. It has to work out, it will work out. I am going to be insanely busy but happy about it. :D

Can it truly be? So as it seems I am sick once again. Of course, not as sick as before but my throat hurts. Well on friday evening I was in my meeting and the weird thing was that it was that moment when I realized that I was sick. You see I was really sick for 5 weeks from late November onto December and almost January so I missed the Christmas meeting, mingling. Well When they asked how I felt on friday I felt all my symptoms coming back but I said I felt a lot better which in comparison I feel great but wasn't feeling so great. I think the way I feel is just from a little stress and trying to cope with the shortage in everything.Stress. Yesterday my mom massage somebody who couldn't swallow because his tonsils were inflamated so I got a mirror and looked in my mouth and down my throat. Well there was nothing wrong at first glance. My tonsils were okay, normal if you can say  that but then I saw something right behind the the visible part of my mouth. Well oddly enough it looked like a 3rd tonsil... it was weird because it looks a little white and I don't know. I don't understand how that can be but that is my new flash...