I don't know how I feel at this moment but it's not great! I don't feel a little stuck and I don't like feeling like this. Sometimes I feel so trapped and other times I feel like I want more like i need to get out. I need to get out more I am growing "desperada" ... Sometimes I want to cry, sometimes I try and hang out with friends but sometimes I am just lonely. And then I feels sad again at the thought that I could be lonely whether it can or can't be true. I don't know what to think or what to hope for.  Why so I feel like this... Well sometimes I know why but I know all I can do is wait and wait. But yeah... sigh....