Well today is finally friday and it's Spring Break .....YAY! But either way my spring break started yesterday but it's ok because I rested and still woke up early 9:30 am . Well I didn't go on my date tonight because he blew out a tire of his car and has been using his mom's but either I am just at school relaxing. I actually got to eat Dinner with Keith and Chris  I was so shocked as you can't even imagen.Well Ramiyah , Adrian ,Nestor and Luis all left today and I was kind of bored but I am happy that they are on their way to go visit their parents. I , myself , have not decided what I am going to do but yeah . I was looking foward to gooing out but hey whatever. Well I dressed up pretty but whatever.Hopefully I get to find out more about David this spring break by the way he speaks to me it sounds like . I like him , he thinks a lot and I think he is going to know how to make me happy . We have made this connection and I like talking to him. It feels like a liltle crush and you get embaress or shy when you talk but  HEY .... I Am still the same person with David , those of you that think I am nice with one person and mean to another well not !!!!! I Am mean to everybody.

Well monday I went on a date with David and wow it was perfect except that we almost got in a car accident but that didn't ruin it . He came here to Redlands to pick me up and we went to the movies but there were no movies at that time until like 6:45 and we got there ar 5:30 so we decided to go eat at sizzlers and we talked . I didn't know he had an A.A. for computer junk but I was impressed i think he said that he went to ITT I think . But he works doing computer stuff in Palms Springs everyday. When we were walking back to go see the movie he slowly gets my hand and starts to hold it . I thought it was the sweetest thing . I really felt comfortable with him. When we were at the movies he was just holding my hand and caressing it . It actually felt right , i don't understand but it's just weird because when he was caressing my hand I was starting to get a few butterflies in my stomach. I don't but there is something about him that I really like . I guess we had a conenction since the beginning which was when we went to Knott's scary farm in October but i was not ready because it hadn't been a month since the break up. He held my hand there for protection from the monsters. i thought it was sweet. i don't I guess i have to start giving chances but trusting is still a bit skeptical. I don't know if all guys are the same . i truly wish that they are not .But either way David   and I are going out on friday . I think I am going to have fun . I am going to have to practice cooking over spring break. I need to get my cooking up and running again and rememeber how to combine my spice to make sauces just like I like them . Oh yeah , David says that he can cook .... that's a plus . :) And another plus I finally found sombody that is actually older than me . I remember when I was younger I use to say that I was never going to go out with anybody that was younger than me , they at least had to be in my grade but I guess that fell through when I was Art's girllfriend for 3 years but I have no regrets but I learn a lot about immaturity so that is a real turn off to me . But David is 20 years also his birthday is in october and that makes him like 3 months older than me but he is older so that makes me happy. I feel so comfortable with him but I can't stare at him in his eyes for a long time ... I get scared, but I don't know why . It makes me feel nervous and I hate that feeling . I could usually lie about certain expressions but I don't think I could hide it . We talked about weird people and stuff and I told him the truth but we just said that we will find out as we go along ...lol because I said that I was a very weird person sometimes . He is church oriented too , and I like that. He asked me if I went to chuch and I said no but it wasn't a bad thing. He must be Catholic because he said his cross when he was about to eat .I don't know but I am just trying to figure him out . And I will I like mystery , I like to find out and so far I have a lot to learn because as of now all I know is that he use to work at McD's and that he had a gf there and I know that b/c I remember , his first name , that he has an associates degree , when his birthday is , who some of his friend are , where he lives . I think that is it but hmm but most of that was stuff that I already knew prior to the date . I know that I Am freak but that is who I am . Maybe during spring break he can meet my mom and dad ....maybe or I will just tell them that I am leaving but who knows there is still half a week to decide about that but I had tried to schedule early hours so that we can go out in the afternoon . I am finally thinking that I might have a chance at moving on . 
I feel free but today when I was hearing a song I thought of Art and I started to cry ... I still kind of miss him but I feel sorry for him . Even though he is a very close friend of mine he is a very stubborn person and I worry about his fututre but I guess that is not much of my worry anymore. I dont know what to say about him but that he will always be in my heart and that regardless of that I have let go and he is gone .

wow my throat hurts and it is 4:45 I have to be up and in front of watchorn in 45 min and I can't sleep.I look a mess but regardless of what my body feels I am happy. Everything is almost ok so w/e.

february 16th ...a day late but Happy Birthday Yeni (18) and Art (19) , Feb . 13th  Fernando Escobedo (19) and Feb.9 Justine (18)
Well yeah I am so tired but hey it's almost the weekend YAY ! time to work.  Work , work, work ... we don't rest until the day we die!

Well Valentine's day is officially over now , good. It was my forst time in 3 years without a Valentine but on the bright side nestor gave me a purple tiger . It was very very cute , I loved it . Work at Plaza was insane I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs and hit some people . i don't ask for much . I am not a picky person I just want to be understood . I just want somebody I can talk to about my problems  and somebody that I can do the same for . I don't care . I just want all my friends there for me and who cares about the world. The world is just an outside issue that I yet don't want to have to deal with it .  Oh my ex , called me he had classes today for the first time HA ! on Valentine's day his day ended at 9:30 and mine started at 9:30 am and ended at 11pm but the sad thing was that he sounded really tired . We have become really close friends . We talk every once in a while on the phone not that often but we have learned how to have conversations and actually talk like adults. I am beginning to respect him again as him . I respect him as a friend but as a person it could be a whole diffeent story. I am very happy with myself though because I am learning how to be the bigger person and realize human error and that most people can't help doing what they do . Forgiving them for their mistakes is basically all we can do and besides our consciences feels better .
 OH By the way !!!!!!! I hate to work so if anybody is rich and they want to marry me , I'll love to .... just kidding . As much as I hate working I like the feeling of earning and wasting my own money not others.
Well what else can I say but good night and I hope that everybdy had a great Valentine's Day and that hopefully everyday is a Valentine's Day with your loved one. Best Wishes to all with there " one" .
 I know my prince will come and rescue me soon.