it happens lol

OK, so remember how I wrote the "g" word well I still don't understand why guys are weird. He was talking about a  lot of stuff that day. Maybe I didn't make it so easy for him or something bc this morning on his fb he changed his relationship status to "in a relationship" and to be frank I don't care. But, it's stupid that he was telling all this shit and when he was getting ready to ask this other girl. It's fine we all so different things with our lives any ways.  And it's better that way :) He needs a girl apparently, I mean it's what he's been saying anyways. Just don't try and bug me while you're with your girl. Or who even knows if he had already been talking to her seriously when he told me all that stuff. Idk ... or how lost it takes him to actually choose to be in a relationship. Well I'm done... lol

Month-niversary/MY Birthday-weekend =D Lucky ME!

The truth is that it's the happiest I've ever been in my life and the best part is that I have someone to share this happiness with...
So When I wrote my last post "He's my Boyfriend" was because I saw that he felt comfortable enough to reveal that I was his Girlfriend not that I needed reassurance.. he shows me how he feels and I show him how I feel and we don't need to make it public (well a lot, haha) But, it's nice to tell the world or at least THE XANGA world!!
So yes on Dec 5th was our our first month as a couple together. When I saw his post I teared up... he's amazing... did you see the video he made on his post?!?!... wow!! He's a total romantic!! So on that lovely thursday he posted, I texted him first instead of writing on his post... I preferred telling him how sweet it was rather than him reading it on the post...
So this funny guy sends me the weirdest text ever... haha
"I miss you baby! Do you miss me?" (He never asked that before... felt like something was up but didn't know what.)
"Aww baby! Of course I miss you! What kind of question is that! :)"
"*sigh* I wish I could see you right now. Hug you. Hold you."  (aww... so sweet!)
"Awww babe! You don't want to see me right now haha I'm a mess :) but I wish I would hold you, hug you and kiss you!" (I'm honest... haha!
Didn't expect this next text...
"Really? Go outside then" ... (in my head I was smiling a little, in my head I felt like I had a wtf look... a little confused... most people who have said that don't know where I live... haha ... I stalled and was confused and didn't want to go outside if it meant getting my hopes shattered... I take my time a little and slowly head outside...
HE WAS THERE!!!!!!
He drove the hour and a half to my house after work!! Crazy guy!!!  
He caught me by total surprise ... *smh* but I was happily surprised!!

My Favorite book w/ a special dedication
My house was a total MESS... O_o ... it was late and I was thinking cleaning all day friday... I had a feeling I might see him Saturday... haha! But, he was here 2 days early!! I don't mind at all,  I loved it... He also asked me if I'd go out with him and his friends friday... Yay, he wanted to introduce me to SOME of his friends!!  I guess I was/am doing something right?! Woot!
So we went to a Dinner at his friend's house and they had a movie planned (that whole night was a total mission full of driving haha... I thought I drove a lot but I don't know how he does it! We went to the theater... the movie sucked... but I liked the company so it was ok...

At the movie theater waiting to see "Devil Inside"
While inside the midnight happened ...

Awww... he likes writing on my hand  and it was my birthday! 
   
On my b-day he made me breakfast...  It was delicious!
He has a way in the kitchen!!It was like an Omlet but it ended up being scrambled  Yummy!!!  This man can cook and knows his way around the kitchen very well!
Be jealous!  haha jk but Be Jealous!

When I was young I loved batman!! He got me the complete works of the series!! We started watching them together. Oh, to be kids again.

Check Mate!
So after everybody ate, I decided we'd take the kids to the park. My cousins were over and they entertain Danny so I thought a nice relaxing time for me would be good!And it give me time to played Chess with Johnson... I'll play any time I get a chance... they do they "Practice makes better..." and that is what I want. So by accident... I WON!!!!! He's never been easy on me but I was lucky and I won... YAY!! I hope that he doesn't get tired of playing with me.

01-08-2012 
Sunday we all went to Mass... and came back home. We made taquitos de Carne Asada. And he plays Wii all the time. I went to my room where the console is set up. Then I think I took a nap while they played... Or danny came fell asleep on me and he was sitting next to me and probably napped... It felt like a long day. But, a great day.
My brother  came over ... it had been my nephew's birthday on the third and they wanted to do a cake at my house. I was done with my bday ... I mean it's usually like a 10 min celebration anyways so I told them to do something for him. I knew Saturday was mine and they could do it for the baby.

The two birthday people... My self and Baby Roland
 So, I was waking up and my bro calls me and says that they're going to cut the cake for the baby and to hurry. I was ready to sing...  for him!

To my surprise they included me in the cake as well ... Baby turned 1 and I turned 27
So sad, no longer in mid 20s... now late 20s... I feel so old... I know it's just a number but I'm in my late 20s ...

Yay, cake! 

My dad sang "Esta son Las Mananitas" 

They put cake on my face and Johnson took a pic.. nice... there's  proof! 


Wiped my face and cut the cake! 

The end of the night 1-8-2012
We ended the night by listening to my dad and bro play guitar and violin and sing. Fun times, this whole weekend!! I can't get enough of them! Everything just seems better and more perfect. I'm just genuinely happy!




=D

He is MY boyfriend...

Ok,
Well,
I don't know how to start this post... I'm talking to myself trying to figure it out and it's not working... I've wondered for days how I would and I put it in the back of my head ... 

I know I've been writing about my feelings here and there and how happy I am what not... coincidence?! No, it's not!! 
So, I met this person who I had kept nameless for personal reasons, his privacy, and well I wasn't ready to reveal because I was just to happy keeping the glory to myself. Or the attention I got from him. About 2 months ago, I physically met a person, a xangan who also happened to have a crush on me and declared it on secrets and wasmy first secrets' mention which by the time that issue came out he had just told me he was crushing on me.
We met for the first time and for some "odd" reason more than we can explain we really enjoyed each other's company. I think that even though we do not quite live so close to each other we have managed to see each other on weekly basis. I think he kind of likes me (KIND OF) because he texts me every morning  oh and he posts a song everyday  I think that us being hopeless Romantics met at a right tim and we're not so hopeless... now we're just helpless because we can't help it but we so happy with each other... I don't know if you can see through the mushiness but I feel free with him ...
So after seeing each other and meeting he decided to ask ME out on an "official date" which was pretty AMAZING!! Most people consider the small encounters as just leading into more but don't think about an actual date or I don't know... But he asked me out and he gave me the most beautiful flowers and yes I kind of teared up.
After that...
I took him to meet part of my family which was at a cousin's 15anera... and I was saving his chair... everybody was eyeing me because they really wanted that chair but I'd give them the look "IT'S MINE!!!!"  and they'd be like "ok, ok... just checking" no not really but I did get that look... it was alright. People were surprised and people asked me is he your boyfriend and I'd say "no, he's my friend" and smile... and they'd give me a raised eye-brow look. I introduced him to my son... if you all didn't know, I'm a single mother... My son had my camera and looked at him and just snapped a shot of him and walked away... My son is a very jealous type of little boy, clingy and well he's been the only one in my life his whole life. So, for me it was a pretty good accomplishment that my son didn't throw a tantrum at the sight of a stranger sitting next to his momma...

A very cold evening ...


He had, already,in month, of meeting/talking, impacted me so much and i felt literally Swept off my feet but  ... But he actually thinks I'm clumsy... "Girl, you be trippin'" Yea, I kept tripping...  Smooth, I was not!!!
About a month ago... well actually exactly a month ago... we were trying to meet and see each other and we were thinking the park but it was far too cold so he knew of a Starbucks that I always went to while in Fontana... "My own special starbucks"  haha so he asked if we can go there... I mentioned of some closer to his exit but "no dice" he wanted to go to MINE.. so we meet there and I'd say we were there for a REAL long time... I'm surprised he's not bored of me  but I guess there is time for that. (I would put pics but he's the one who owns them and I haven't signed any release form haha ) jk there are a few...
So I wanted to do something nice for him which I didn't know what so I knit him a scarf... Being impatient as I am ... I made it fast and well I gave it to him on a chilly day which happened to be December 5th when we were in starbucks. It was time to leave, Starbucks was closing ... it was cold outside...  I already had his other scarf he had and we didn't quite want to part ways even though we'd been there talking for hours...

So we went in a warmer place, my car. I don't quite remember what happened  or how ...but he whispered something to me...  and then he asked me be his girlfriend... the first time I was formally asked to be a girlfriend face to face... of course... I said "NO" ... wait different person... *cough*  I mean I said, "YES!"  THE END... jk

So @Cucumber_Melonhead and Pinktiger335 are officially boyfriend & girlfriend well for a month now but to your knowledge since NOW!
We spent Christmas and New Year's with my family and he's great... He and Danny get along so well... I even have time for naps haha... Actually I'm sure after spending time with Danny he needs naps too... Danny kept him busy the whole time...

So that's the news...
 
Oh and I asked him to teach me chess... so we are nerds and play chess a lot

and yes we'll hold hands while playing ...
oh and he made me "Queen" Officially even though by name I'm already one... 

Jk, thank you for reading the madness!!

TRUST me - stay off my phone!!!!!!

So I was going to write about this last week the same day I wrote my other post about (marriage) but I was a little busy and therein became more preoccupied and mostly stayed off xanga...  Needed some time off ...

So anyways........

I was listening to the radio that morning and there was a discussion... Of course it all comes down to trust of your loved one, your SO, your girlfriend, boyfriend, husband, wife...
Call it snooping or creeping around.... Not the "creeping around" where you might be with someone else at the same time but then again that can lead to the mistrust and lack communication... and cheating and blah blah blah... I'm sure many of us have been on that side ....
We all have many accounts when it comes to social networks, emails, interactions with people all over the place but is it ok that your SO is looking around your stuff? If they trust you, should they have nothing to worry about? And if they don't trust you should it be their right to look through your stuff...

When is it right to look through stuff? Should they ask?
When does "what's my stuff is your stuff and what your stuff is my stuff" start??  Or does that even exist...  Now a days we each have our stuff, buy our own stuff .....what rights of privacy are you giving up or are you entitled to when you have a SO?


What's your take on "YOUR" stuff... when can they see... should they trust you and not ask... or reserve the right to still you? Does it go both ways?

Should you give away your passwords?

I hate this feeling

This year to me has been many things... Started off dull and somewhat interesting but it was mainly full of small constant conflict which then you would think I loved personal drama (personal and in my own) We never expect things to change but they do... In fact this isn't really about the year that has passed, it's gone and we leave the past where it belongs, behind us.
I met this person, I don't know if it was luck or chance but I met this person. He has therein changed so much in my life.

When I met you I was giving up on the whole thing of ever finding someone. Not because I was but because for the first time I started to realize something. I was being too selfish and "I wanted, wanted wanted" what I couldn't have. It was years since someone called me "theirs" and was proud to show it. In fact, that's what I wanted more in life. I slowly started realizing that I was unhappy not with the world because the world doesn't change but with me. I just utterly was repulsed at the sight on my own being why because that's how I felt the world viewed me. I was going through my moments but much better than I have ever been able to handle. I got to the point when I knew that I had to change my point of view not because it mattered but because I as letting my self sink again. My thought process changed and realized the stupid little mistakes and my inflicted self downing was doing to do. I blame myself for somethings I had no control over. That's when I said "F" it to what happened in the past and I'm just moving forward from whatever day I'm on and no looking back. Which is how you found me "bored out of my mind" and I really was. I was on xanga and I was on FB and I talking to people -chatting it up- but bored and until you came on and we talked for hours that day. For me chatting was just chatting and it was the first time I had logged on to that account in a long while. I don't know how it happened after that because it's a small blur but the encounters have all and every single one of them been each much more exciting. I can't really remember the last time I truly felt like this. I can't remember the last time I sincerely felt so much happiness. I have never ever trusted someone like I have you so far. And, call me crazy because I know people will say I have left myself susceptible to a wound more than I can ever imagine but it's a risk I'm willing to take. 
All I can say is thank you for everything for now. My gratitude is endless. You've already came in and done more than so many people I've known. You are special and with that regard you deserve so much. I hope, it's worth it for you.
I am endlessly appreciative and grateful...
I hate the feeling of helplessness but I love the feeling of support and being loved, accepted and wanted.
Thank you for showing me hope in what I thought was gone!!