Well I just went to go see Underworld: Rise of the Lycans. It was pretty awesome. I went to go see it with Nestor and it made me want to see the first two. After that we went to go get some coffee to stay warm because it was freezing out there. But I had so much fun. I don't remember the last time I had so much fun and the thing I enjoyed the most is that we have so many things in common which before we use to argue and debate. We had so many disagreement but I don't know what has changed maybe time and the fact we hadn't talked in a while. So after we went to go pick up Danny from my aunt's house and headed home. I really did have fun and I we laughed so much... We just reminiscence on the old years. I know I will always be grateful for him! If it wasn't for him I wouldn't have gotten home the day Danny was going to be born.

When I got home I found out that my little brothers' friend or best friend drank so much that he was unconscious and I guess an ambulance came down to the house so they took him in to check he is fine. Man I can't believe they are that stupid!?! Last time it was my brothers. They are 16 and they are so stupid... They are hurting their liver but most of that they make us worry.

Well Danny, my sister and her bf were all playing fighting it was cute. They were jumping around and fighting. I don't know just watching with so much energy was a night full of laughter.

And well it sounds like I am going to get a handful of yelling because I left Danny with my aunt. Well what am I suppose to do. stay home all the time and not do anything? It sucks that I can't do a single thing without being told what to do. I don't have a life and I do like to have a little fun... what was 3 hours at my aunt's house? Is it that bad... I don't know why my mom is so judgmental?  See she never lets me do anything, or if I want to have a little fun I can't because she wont watch him... WTF! What am I suppose to do if I can't trust family. I a guess I should be looking forward to a spoon full of yelling. Great! A wonderful day and night ruined by a sometimes "unhappy" person. I don't understand why she can't see me be a little happy and working... Nothing I can do will ever be good enough... What am I going to go? I know I am suppose to wait patiently and I hope that it will turn out for the best which I don't doubt but at times I just don't want to hear the yelling. I can't stand it. I do it all and nobody else helps...yeah is that not good enough to have a little time for my self? Is it not? I don't know... I guess that is my fault... It's always my fault for it all... but you know what? I don't care and I think that is what makes her more mad, that I have gotten desensitized to her yelling and complaining. What am I suppose to do with all that negativity coming my way. I am starting to be positive but why wont she let me? That is one thing I don't understand... Another thing is that the few times I do get complimented well she manages to turn it into something else... something that puts me down and makes me feel negative. I hate feeling that way and for that reason I don't want a boyfriend because I get one and well there is my family. I am not embarrassed but I will be a little hard for the future person... *sigh* I guess the only thing I can do is pray and hope the best and keep moving forward. Nothing good ever comes back from living in a sad beginning.