ou are surrounded by so many people. So many great people but you
don't talk to anybody, you're just there... floating side by side with
life. You should be happy you share this wonderful life with so many but
they have someone to share it with. You're just a bystander, you're
just a lonely looker in, living through the happiness of others. You've
wasted your time trying to make friends and in the end you notice you
have none. You excited run to tell everybody of news and happiness and
you go one by one to your friends and when you open your mouth with news
they disappear, they were never there. You wonder what you do wrong and
how to repel people but there is no explanation, it's just easier to
pretend another doesn't exist when they don't affect you directly. You
go on with life, sometimes people wonder about you in a memory a distant
dream but never enough to care and find you ... just like "Oh, I wonder
what happened to so and so?" ... and that mention is gone with the
wind. People possess power, unexplained energy but with power comes
responsibility and no one has control. The world has become too caring
of themselves but it's ok at least you have personal responsibility. As
for your friend, he/she will be fine... a lonely wanderer just trying to
find the place they fit. They probably wont, though, they never have.
They're just a ghost...people never see you, they pretend to but all
they felt was your energy and dismiss it. Everybody will always see
through you, you're not real, you never existed. If you're lucky someone
will.
People find themselves and define themselves... but you're
just lost in the confusion of being. How ARE you? and you never answer
that honestly because there aren't answers to answer such a complicated
question. In that early stage, being a teleprompter, you have to answer
with the basics and most say "good" anyways when it's not true. But, who
needs to push it someone finally cared enough to ask OR they were
being courteous which ever by now you've learn what people just want to
hear, "good", "I'm fine" etc they don't want to go into deep
conversation they just want an opportunity to tell you about theirs. And
you care, you care a lot until you realize that they don't care about
you. They just needed a disposable friend someone to dump their troubles
and keep going.
You just float, hoping that your ghost isn't completely unnoticed ...
You're brighten like the sun, come alive with laughter and a smile.
But,smiles
are such a rarity that it might as well rain everyday because
regardless you have no shelter. You're just a few steps away from
reaching out that you fall into the depths of darkness before you reach
at that hand trying to get you out...you lose and don't want to.
The
smile brightens you and brings color and life but you're colorblind you
can't see it... all you see is black. You don't want to be blind, you
wanna see but who guides a blind person when they're blind themselves?
How
can your ghost become real and not just the illusion everybody pretends
not to see? We want you to be you but most would only care if you were
10 yrs younger or feel you're more mature being 10 yrs older. You're
stuck in between realms part of you in and the other part of you
out...There's no escape, you're trapped. You can't do it alone but you
hope you can get to either side, at this point that would be an
accomplishment.
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