wtf jeff

Yesterday I was ready to write this blog or post for myself... I didn't want to write publicly about Jeff... Wasn't ready to invoke such emotion... Why are guys so fucking stupid... I don't get it... he himself said honesty above anything and I trusted him... and there it goes... Stupid reyna again in the same position... feeling unexposed... I know he wanted to take things slow... but I had no idea he was talking to 2 of us... and especially his ex who he claims made him so unhappy... what the fuck is this shit and then today he got caught up... Right now I don't know if it's worth talking him... it seems like he doesn't want a future with me... he's thinking of everything and not using his heart... so it's all work and what his needs are... Fuck man... another one dwindling to nothing... it's my fault... I hate me... nothing is ever going to work out...