My Greatest Fear....And you grew within....

My greatest fear

Grew within me

You will never know what I had to hear

 
It was May 1^st

And there were moments were I just needed to burst

My greatest fear

Grew within me

 

The constant bickering, screaming

Kept me at a low

I cried every day, at every hour
 hidden in my pillow below
And my mouth was just so sour

A few knew

And you grew

 

It was a secret,

One, in which I slowly died.

A secret NO ONE was suppose to know

One which was to be kept away

From Family

Friends,

Many,

But especially the Father.

 

My greatest fear

You brought me so many conflicts

So much controversy

And even a lovely statistic

 

My greatest fear

Grew within

Every day I wanted to run

I wanted to hide

So much as you grew within

 

As I tried to get away

I wobbled across the green meadows

And dealt with the pain alone.

 

You grew within

 

I had my doubts

And you grew within

 

I knew I would be alone

And you grew within

 

I knew I wouldn’t be able to give it all to you

And you grew within

 

I knew you would have no Father

And yet you grew within

 

You grew within

And you kept growing

Nothing stopped you from maturing

 

My greatest fear

Here you are

You still grow but no longer within

But Alongside

 

My greatest fear,

My pride,

My joy,

My happiness

And, my love

I wrote this a while back when I still had a lot on my mind about my son... though he was my greatest fear he now my biggest pride... 

Still a happily single mother with a college degree to show for it. Time was very tough then in my life. I think I was falling in the wrong path... and fortunately and unfortunately I ended up pregnant... This child kept my head on straight and I learn to focus on what was in front of me, I no longer had the time to waste on nothingness...but to dedicate to everything important to succeed and be a better person!!