time I wasn't feeling it... I had to push him back and I told him that I wasn't there to... :[do the deed] and well I got out and left to his little living room... well it was time for me to go home... He gave me a hug and a kiss and I left... he never contacted me... Sure that week was weird... I owned a cute MR2 for a few days and soon learned I had to give it back... I found out I was pregnant... all in 7 days spanned... well a couple years later... he finds me on myspace and we just talk... he  has a fiancee and has a little boy. He invites me to his birthday on one windy evening of October 22... and that was it now he started talking to me briefly again... I am going to post actual conversation...  Too much gap... but it's going to be with some commentary also... Oh to clarify... he has "supposedly broken with his fiancee for sometime" That is what I "know" because one time he was talking to me I mentioned that if she would get jealous if he spoke to old lady friends... he said she didn't have a reason to judge since they weren't together... and yeah... 

Him: I just sent you mail
me: Oh ok
Him: just lettin you "You Got Mail"
me: thanks   (I accidently put a semi colen so it looks like a winky eye instead of just a happy face)
Him: so what are you up to gurl?
me: nothing much...just woke up from a nap and thinking about cleaning...typical girl stuff...lol...you? What have you been up to?
Him: lol, i see nothing much, just the usual...workin, thats about it the...
[the conversation started as a usual talking and catching up with a friend, we talked about work and family and about  teaching music and both our kids interests... forming a little band...I am going to start in this convo and so you're not lost at the beginning he has mentioned he sent me mail] 
 Message~ "hey cutie, I see you stay lookin good 
I'm doin well, my son is good...thanks for asking, I appreciate that. It is a great deal tho, I knw your son is 3 but just buy your ticket and is they ask, say he's 2 & half, get him in for free...they're not gonna ask for no I.D or anything like that, they cant just say "no he's not" ya know.  I hope you can put it to good use too. Thanks for the compliment, I taste sweet too, dnt knw if you remember that  ....but nah, your the sweet one. Have you checked out any new movies or anything, caught that G.I Joe? I havent....need someone to go with, I'm just saying..."
and I wrote to him  "thanks, you flirt! lol 
It is a good deal but people already tell me that he looks like a 4 year old but I mean what is double if we really have fun, right?
I don't remember how sweet you are... lol...  After a while I have lost sight of socializing... I don't know anything that is out there in the movie world. The last movie I saw was "up" because I took danny.." So in the next convo it makes sense]
me: last season he loved watching America's best dance crew and wanted to have one of his own.
Him: yea? Ilike that too. I just got yoou message mail. I amkinf of a flirt, maybe
me: Yeah, kind of... lol
Him: lol just a lil
me: I don't think kind of lol 
Him: yea, not kinda... but you cant blame me tho
me: never blame people for being themselves honesty is always appreciated
Him: yea, especially when I'm talking to a cute woman, ya know...

man your fast on the typing

me:oh geez...lol no not really

Him: lol

me:but sometimes I have to practiceI thought you were a computer guy

Him:I am but sometimes, I'm kinda thinking while I type and yea its a lil slow sometimes

me, not my brain...lol

me: what are you saying that I don't think while I type

lol you not the brain that is good

Him: lol no not that

me: sure sure not that huh

Him: lol fo rel

me:I just type not think

lol (and we keep talking a little on typing)

I always try and work on my accuracy on typing and speed

Him: do you really

me: just because I would like to get some clerical job.

Him: get outta here, yea?

me:maybe sosmetime I still thinkof it yeah I do

Him: right, right...ok

me: sometimes trying to do that you can't think too much

Him: no, not at all...you just gotta type

me: you just have to do... and besides my lap top os little so it's easier to make mistakes

yeah

Him: what, you got that notebook?

me: While I was at Redlands that is all I would do and it was very Exhausting mentally but loved it

I have the lil eee mini notebook

Him: well as long as you love it thats kool

me:sometimes...lol I like doing things that involve computers that way I can be online at the same time

Him: lol, sometimes is better than none

yea, thats always good

me: with my lil lap top I always try and find some singnal

I know I shouldn't steal but if it's unatended oh well

Him: why, you dont get good signal?....so you dont remember if I taste sweet huh

it is what it is, everyone does that

me: Oh I do at home...when I am driving around

I wish I was psychic and i could guess the network key to all secure networks...lol

Him: that would be nice

me:I remember the last time we kissed.... in like the end of April 2005

See I bet you didn't remember that... lol ( I know weird I remembered... but since I found out I was pregnant on May 1st... it makes sense I and seem him a few days before.. that memorable week)

Him: lol, no I didnt remember the date ( I know he didn't... he had been turned on and I left...he never got anything sexual from me)

me: so many things happened during that time frame... it's hard to forget time of events for every day it was a tough week for me

Him: I do remember the kiss tho my thing froze up, did you say anything/type anything?

me:no did you get ~it was a tough week

Him: get what? oh, nah you mean the week we kissed? was tough

me: yeah so many event s happened in which I was saddened

Him: fo real, how come I never knew about that...maybe cause I didnt ask and you didnt tell (The reason he didn't know was because he never called me again... and well things got rough for me... and I was going to call someone and let him know everything that was going on... he wouldn't have listened...)

me:yeah but it was best that way... you would have hated me anyways

Him: hated you? I dnt know about that but thats the way you wnated it, maybe it was for the best, I dnt know tho...you remeber our first date? well it was really our only dt *date

me: well at the end of that week I found out I was pregnant... so shocking....

of course I remember the first and only date it was very sweet we went to go see hitch

Him: oh sh*t, yea...I would have been like...whaaat.

me:and you ran a stop sign and almost got in a car accident

Him: yea we did I'm glad you remember I was about to bring that up

me:yeah I remember

Him: I did...MAN! I couldnt belive that, I almost go us killed out there

it was a hell of a first date, cant forget that

me: that was the best date I had ever gone to lol

Him: really? stop playin

me: it was a hell of a date but memorable

really... it was

all the dates that I ever had with Art always ended with him making me cry and feel guilty

me: well I'm really happy it was, it was great date for me too

me:I am glad... the movie chose made it a lil awkward though...lol

Him: lol, why was that?

me: I don't know... it was hitch... how guys can supposedly get girls and they tricks and techniques on how to win them over

I don't know .... it was like an ambush...lol

Him: lol, yea...i can see why

well, it turned out very well

me: that was the only thing but I was happy I got to see it though, it did

Him: like I said tho, I'm happy I was your best date you've ever had or had....made you smile at the end, not cry, I would never wanna do that

me: you did make me smile...

Him: now...do you remember..knotts?

scary farm (The strange thing was that I don't know why he was reminding me of all of this... that has been like 5 years now... a long time. Was very confused)

me: hahaha...yeah... with my weird pony tails and the black pants with an orange and hot pink shirt...

I remember

I was weird...

Him: lol, kinda...but I ended up holding you a lil and your hand, a lil

me: you kept protecting me from those monsters ad yeah holding my hand

I remmeber....

Him: of course, I had to protect you

and it felt good doing it too 

(yeah, I didn't really need protection and well I didn't do anything but he really, I mean he really  thought I was scared then... never told him or showed him other wise... the one who was really petrified was Brittany)

me:lol

Him: lol, it did tho thats made it a good time for me there.....you

*thats what just woulda been nice if went out/got together a couple more times

but when we did, it was good

me: yeah... there were too many gaps in betwen seeing each other

(hate to be sour milk but the truth was the truth and it was in the past... quite nostalgic but still in the past)

Him: yeah, too many

me: yeah that was what made it hard...,

Him: i know, it did....cause i did think about you too (yeah, so much he called me a lot or often since the last supposable memorable kiss... [being sarcastic by the way])

I mean, the last time we've seen each other was on my birthday and that was like what 2yrs ago? and my bad I didnt really get to talk to you a lot they guys had be kinda locked in over on the side

me: no worries yeah it's been a while

Him: you looked great by the way, you were lookin real good

me:sometimes things are that wayHim: yea
me: I don't think so ...
Him: thats true lol well I do think so

me: thank you

Him: no need to thank me but your very welcome

me: things change so fast and keep moving forward

(had to be honest such a long time and life doesn't stop it just keeps going)

Him: yea, they do....fast is the right word sometimes almost too fast
Him:we should probably get together someitme, lunch or whatever, its been a long long time

i know your pretty busy tho, i'm just sayin

me: maybe...,yeah sometimes
Him: I'll take that, better than a no (I guess he was thinking I was going to say a def no or a def yes... what was I suppose to yes... oh yea... let'sgo on a lunch date put our regular lives on hold...I don't know)
Him: here's my number...I dnt expect you to call me today or 2mrrw but whenever you want to hit me up or just talk....909-XXX-XX48
me: lol you're funny k (I was seriously laughing at the "I'll take that, better than a no")

Him:lol, why? I just am huh

me: about the today , tomorrow thing

sorry

Him: nah, its cool, it made me laugh
me: I'll give you my number too(I figured I would give him mine... I am less likely to call him than he is... maybe he is really interested...idk... I am not interested in calling people... I call too many people for work)
Him: dont be sorryme: 909XXX6XX2

me: I guess sometimes i don't answer at the correct time and that is what I get

Him: lol, yea....that happens sometimes its ok i bee thru it
me: lol, it that your house or cell

Him: I got your number, its in the contacts

cell what about yours?

me: cell we don't have a home phone right now lol
Him: we dont either lol so its all goodwell I'm about to log off...but I will be hitting you up or you can call me...so I will talk to you sooner than later no need to apologize, cause I dont know if you ever knew it...its Ortez
Me: yeah we'll do that... maybe you'll be faster with my weird times... I am always free but not to makes call...

hahah weird but yeah... either way we'll be in contact soon (I hope it didn't sound rude...I really don't have time to make calls... I am usually very busy doing something but I always take a call when I receive him)

Him: lol, ok...guess I'll be the one to call

me: thank...

Him: yea, real soon (we'll so far it's been like 3 days or so and counting... I mean ifhe doesn'tcall he doesn't and if he does what am I suppose to say)

me: k

Him: bye cutie

me: bye (was I suppose to say good bye in a different way or just bye was fine. In reality I am not the one trying to impress any one right... or should I have tried a litttle more... I don't know)

this is a little something of what happened... I willl edit it tomorrow...