So maybe like an hour ago I was driving and my mom was asleep... well we were pulling up to this really nice Golden Lexus with silver or chrome rims... well anyways... I was looking at it because I liked it all but the color gold... As I drove near it I was there was 3 males... but as I was parallel to the car I saw that the man in the front seat was wearing something in his head... I don't know why but my body threw this sensor through my head ... screaming "car bomber" .... I was so scared and thought of "The Kingdom" the movie...
They looked like from that region... not knowing specifics which sadly they could have been Egyptians but I doubt that, well I know I drove a little faster to have a distance but when I came to... I felt so icky, soooo racist... I felt like dirt because I had it in me to be so evil and think of innocent people with such hatred... because let's me honest if one feels fear or thinks so negatively off a person just by the way their looks convey then there was a small hatred... especially to condemn them in such a manner. I know I don't hate people and I was usually one of the most opened people I know... I love knowing of diversity. When I was in school I was a minority and it didn't affect me as much as other friends.... but I don't know why I felt like this, this time. But I do know that I still feel dishonest. In this moment that is happened... I feel worse than anything else I have ever done and I don't know why. I am Mexican/American and I know what it feels like to be discrimanated against it's just in the nature of the way society feels to point the finger. And because of it... I know when people are being racist against me but I don't please them to let it affect me... nothing they do can make me feel as bad I did right now, being a racism... I do apologize. It was in me and I needed to let it out befor it ate me alive...
*sigh*
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