right now I just feel like I just want a truck to run over me and I don't care... I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I just want to rest forever. My left kidney hurts and it bugging me... I am not thirsty and I am not hungry... I just don't have an appetite and I just feel a little weak... my eyes just want to sleep and sleep but I can't. Sadly... I haven't even had time to take a shower since either monday night or tuesday morning...frankly I don't remember. I know it's kind of gross but fuck it... life sometimes just happens to be like that. It's like I want to dress up and look nice but I just don't have time. These past 2 days I've been going to Lake Elsinore and doing a little bit of work through a person's house and I leave in the morning and come back in time to go to my aunt's house. I have no me time... or anything. I haven't really watched tv these last few days... Everything irritates me... and I know I am just snapping at people or I think so... but I don't know what i have. I'm just annoyed at every little thing. You know something that does worry me thogh is everybody that are going to go take my grandpa's body next. It makes me really sad that my sis is going to be in Mexico for Danny's b-day but oh well... I am sure they will all be back on friday night... saturday.... I don't know. I know right now we can't afford anything but still...