Hard times...
Well my sister and some of our family left to mexico this early morning. I am thinking they are in a plane by now on their way to Zacatecas. Since it was a last minute thing they couldn't get passports so they flew from the airport in Tijuana(TJ), Mexico. Oddly enough my dad couldn't go on the trip because he has been really ill... so ill he was laid off from work last week. So his Compadre took him to TJ to see a doctor. My mom is frustrated because the Compadre's (that took my dad) wife (mom's comadre) told her yesterday that she needs to do something and start working... My mom isn't exactly ready or adaquate to be doing her job as well as she use to besides she is always taken for granted. Nobody sees what she does. Even though she isn't working she manages to pay everything she can from the little income she gets. Nobody sees that. Everybody just complains and complains but it's hard. My dad is sick because he wont go to a doctor and we tell him but he says later... someone else tells him and he can't say no. I've been doing some more jobs... sure I have to drive far and I only get paid the minimum pretty much but I am trying. I woke up this morning and I tried making a call and well there you go my phone was disconnected again. I am sure I can receive calls and texts but I can't make them. It sucks because they don't even give me the whole month they just disconnect it 2 days after the bills is due. It's so hard and I konw I eventually get it back on but this is the 4th fuckin month. So it's $15 reconnection fee... that's a total of $60 bucks extra that I have to pay. I just paid $105 last month... They cut my phone for $68 and now my phone is at $183.03 once again. I don't know what I am going to do... Everything seems as it's tighter this month... It's Danny's birthdday tomorrow and I can't give him anything... I wish I can make him a lunch thing... Family that went to mexico are coming on saturday for a little time and I can't cook... we have nothing. I am stuck between walls and i can't scream... I can't do anything. I can't ask my parents... mom isn't working dad is laid off and worried about the rent. We already planned no Christmas this year so we're not worried about it but Danny is starting to grasp the concept of christmas on TV and it's hard to explain why we have no lights, no christmas tree...  We don't even have a dryer anymore it broke and it's too cold to dry clothes outside...