Oh yeah, so where did I finish...
Well, Saturday since everything was so fast and we had a lot to do I didn't have time to dress up but it's ok... sometime when it's not possible it just isn't.
Well, my parents took my mom's car which I was a little worried about because we were pretty much going to be left without a vehicle or at least a short term vehicle. See my dad hasn't really allowed me to use my car much because the condition the tires have been in. SO I told him, "Daddy, you're going to leave me without a car?" And ironically he said, "well you're car works fine.." so I told him, "well then you take my car and I'll just use mom's car" so hesitantly he said, " well it needs tires" so I said well what tires it's nothing" But then I said, "Dad, I'm just kidding! I don't care, take mom's car" so then Later in the afternoon my mom asked me if my dad had given me money and I said no. "Why would he give me money?" " So you can change the cars in you car" I was so confused in no way was I ever expecting him to give me money for tires but since they left and they didn't wake me up I just assumed that they didn't leave anything then they call me around 10:30 and they told me that I needed to go to Pepboys and get them replaced. He had spoken to the people the day before. He had leftus some money but wanted me to see if they would accept them to allow him to pay with his card as well. So I went and the guy told that it would cost approximately $293 So I told him why so much... because each tire wasn't that much and for the concluding price to be that high had me thinking. He listed everything that they were going to do... so I said take out the allighment... so the guy says well the allingment is optional but I lovehow they didn't tell me this before hand... so then he re-calculated and said it's probably going to be a little over $200 so I asked exactly how much... and he said 207 because I was about to leave... so I heard 207 ... so I said ok... that can be done. I can $200 cash and so then I remember what my dad told me about his card so I asked the guy if my dad can call and blah, blah, blah but he said no that my dad would have to be present with an ID.... it's not like I had the card or anything. I called my dad and told him we couldn't do that then he asked me did you talk to so-n-so and I said whichon ... he said he's a little chubbier and his face looks like he was beat up... so I look for him and finally talk to him and I explained the situation so he said he was going to do it this time only, well since he knew my dad and he was a loyal customer. I mean I don't really care of he says he's never going to do it again as long as he was doing it right now... ya know?
So yeah, yesterday we didn't even have time to go to church ... bad, bad, bad... But since the Novenario for my grandpa's death started we went to that instead. It's going to go for the next 8 sundays at like 6-7 pm ...
So my aunt was telling us how when everybody came back on friday ... she was crying a lot around 3-4pm. She had another dream about grandpa. He returned to her in a dream, in a white suit... Telling her that she needs to stop crying for him. She says that he said he was very happy where he is and didn't need her to suffer or put herself through that. Which her crying he feels bad... So we're all assuming that he isn't resting as much but he had a good life and did everything he wanted I guess also because he had made them promise not to cry. And, all the ceremonies were very peacfuly no crying... and no one was scared to go near his body. It's like when he died he gave us all the security and peace of mind that we all knew it was time. And everytime we saw his body even though he had passed we no longer left we needed to cry... we felt happy he was in a happier place and he wasn't in agonizing pain anymore. Grandpa R.I.P.
So sometimes I am so tired of so many things. There are just a few things that I am tired... I don't want them yet they continue. I don't understand why it's so hard to stop them. Some things just suck. I guess sometimes it's just about waiting and seeing how everything turns out. We all only hope for the best, pray for the best and try and relax.
Danny just makes me so happy... he is grasping to so much more now it's amazing. He surprises me even more day by day... Well the Posadas start today and in my house so I got to pick up a few things before they start at 5pm. We start the praying part in my house and go to another house where we sing and then they feed us and give the kids a goodie baggy. I was so sad I couldn't get baggies and cady for saturday but times are hard and I was glad peopel were satisfied enough the food and cake... I am just at such a peaceful state but there are still something that are eating me out... I need to write... maybe later...
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