You know what's on my mind? A friend... or someone I think is or was or whatever... but every single time I see his effin profile he pisses me off... I don't understand why. I guess he is the 2nd person tp really piss me off for nothing and I guess because I thought we were friends... or we were back in the day but I wasn't willing to give up so easily in the friendship and he would push me away. I don't hate him but I do... I guess I am not use to the fact the he gave up over nothing and un capricho...fucken idiot... He was the one person who would hear my whine and complain and would talk me out of things now... who knows what trash he talks to... Yeah I know that's mean but what ever... he left me hanging so many times after I needed his friendship and at first he said we were best friends... I never cared I liked me at first I didn't look at him different but I tried to still be as close to him as ever... Come on he took me out to a movie and ice cream when I was pregnant was having the baby so bad after all to loose touch and bever speak to me again... I don't care he hate the baby's father that was not my business... But I guess what is done is done and can't be undone... I've done and tried too much... maybe I was just too late... but I wasn't because he stopped talking to me and I still kept and all of a sudden oh so busy and no time... no answering texts... you know what I am going to see how he is doing... You know sometimes you care so much for a person because they were such a big impact that the fact that they are not there is just frustrating because you can't explain it... but I don't know maybe I'm being selfish? Can it be that? WEll I am not gaining anything... but we use to fight before and we were both stubborn but eventually I started respecting him for his points of views instead of giving him the contrary but time change...people change... and we all move on... So stupid little feud out orgizations had because of a blond chick should be a huge cause a a friendship like that...
It just started pouring love it... love the rain...