Ok, So strangely enough I am being haunted by dreams.... no they're not nightmares but they bug me all day... When I am asleep ...ok so I dream and when I am dreaming that heavily then obviously I am not resting all too well... secondly I remember them and I am trying to make sense out of them all day but I come to no conclusion so in the end I am puzzled with a head-ache. Last time, I was finally sleepy at time which was 11 something in the pm and then my phone beeps... stupid e-mails... I go to the rest room and well now I am wide awake again without being tired...ugh!! I don't know when I go to sleep but I wake up at 3am and there I am thinking and trying to go to sleep... it sucks... all I do is think and hear this solo I had in my dream. I haven't heard anyone play a solo like that in a bari-sax ever... I think the sound of a bari-sax in the most beautiful sound... eeverytime I hear in jazz music... or in latin music it just gives me a feeling of fullfillment... That sound is amazing. Too bad I've never heard anybody play like that only in a dream... who knows who the player was but the music was beautiful... When I use to go to jazz concerts in Redladns i would sit and listen to the bari but they would hardly feature it. In concert music it was featured everyonce in a while but it's the jazzy... un-sqaured tonguing tone of it that amazes me... maybe it's because I am a sqaure and tried the tenor sax but didn't suceed too much or was dwelled in presure in my day... ahhh... but even right now I see like shiny silver instrument just singing away... It's amazing thinking of it just gives me butterflies... I've learned to appreaciate much more music in weird ways... I give I just wait for it to reach my heart :]
ok on another note,
so yesterday we went to look at a house and I think it's a keeper... it's a nice house! But I think we don't have too much time to playing around anymore since we have to be out by the end of next week with a clean house... and blah, blah, blah. My mom ended up knowing the lady that is renting which is great but we'll see there is always misunderstandings and mom is always trying to be selfish so problems arise. We were all happy with the house... meaning my sis, my parents and I since my brothers stayed in the car but when we got home the isues started and bickering... irriatating... so then my mom started telling me if we move out of state her, Danny and me and I said no it wouldn't work out. If I were to leave for any reason it's to have space from her but she doesn't get it. I love her but she tried to control me too much and which that in mind I would never be free... She asked why not and all I said I can't I'm not ready which I am not... she would always get her way and if she didn't then she would be depressed and I would feel bad and you knowdo it anyways... that is how she works... I always do things for people because I feel bad to say no even though sometimes by heart and mind are screaming at me to say somethings.I know I am stupid at times but I am also helpful... which I am going to die being walked on all the time....
Anyways, so we have high hopes that that house is the one for a while it's in southridge but a part I had never seen ... but it's a beautiful place ;)
So another thing,
So the girl that came to our house October 9... well when we went to look at the house she looked kind of sad... I don't know why but maybe because we weren't including her in the consersation which she had no say, or choosing a room because she is a temp... I don't know but I understand in a way... Well interesting enough when we came back she was making some calls and well in the evening she left? It was weird but we weren't expecting that although we were kind of hoping that she would find a place soon. I mean well it's for her own good. We're having our own issues and well having another person at times made it difficult because we did take her in consideration. But, she had a home here for 4 days short of 4 weeks. I hope her the best but at least the house now we don't have to worry about retiring to our rooms so that someone could sleep in the living room. Well yeah, for right now that'll do...
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