Unsure

Here i am writing through my phone again. I just finished watching Girl Interrupted, great movie by the way. Right now there are so many things on my mind. Right now i'm having so many issues and i thought i was ok. I'm healthy so why is this falling apart together. It's like every time something like this happens i start seeing more flaws and more and to a point i cant even see a mirror because i don't want to see what others see. I know there are times i see pretty and confidant but as much as i feel a little more confidant why is it i feel the ugliest now? Sometimes i where my make- up and then look in the mirror i don't know hoping to see someone else but i only see of. Plain ol' me. I don't know what i'm purpose to do to see what i want my eyes to see. . . The sad thing is that it's always befor this way. I only feel pretty once. . . And i never feel it anymore. Well they say that when you love some one it should be unconditional but i don't know if i can ever do that again. I don't know if i can allow