I want to go and then again I don't. So my mom and I discussed once more the dream I have always had to go from California. But instead of it being my choice she really wants me to go and I don't understand the sudden change of heart. Like she told me when I was pregnant. She said that when I graduated from high school she wanted me to go to school out of state. And I guess in a way things would have happened differently if I had but that doesn't matter now anyways. It's just what she told me. She is really encouraging me to go with my cousin out of state. She started telling my sister even before I made any decisions. I am stuck in a way. Should I go or should I stay. If I go that means I am going to leave my son behind. If I go I might have an opportunity to a job and a new life. I don't know what I want. I have great things here but sometimes I wonder if I can have better which I know I can but then again sometimes I wonder if I really want to... Should I go or should I stay...