Monday, July 12, 2010

Does a guy really think...

Does a guy really think that the pull-out method is a form of birth control or would be only be doing that  because his penis thinks it feels better not to wear a coat?

Anyways, So I was with the guy I've been talking to last week and well you know one thing leads to another and there we are... in a compromising act or whatever. And well he obviously wants to keep going and I didn't let him.

 And do they really think we're sometimes a lil "dumb-ed" out by pleasure that we'll let them do whatever? I don't think so... I am a single mom and there is no way I am going to jeopardize my caged freedom I already have. 

Anyways, So I tell him do you have a condom... and he was like yea but over there and tried to proceed... so I moved... and I'm sorry but a intense part of a situation will still not drive me to do something and have to pay for the consequences later... been there done that...

I know it's not wrong and it probably ruined his mood a little but can we  as women sometimes we so stupid as to let our emotions drive as to do something and then what happens? We're pregnant... and what do we do? We're not going to stop dating people just because we're going to get FN preggos with every guy you meet... you might be a "whore" if you have sex with all of them ... but now the  main reason why I was thinking about this was responsibility. 

Facts: I am a mom. It's still not a stable relationship.

Ok with that said... Do guys know that their pre-cum can sometimes have a stronger concentrate of lil soldiers?... I'm sorry but I don't want to be pregnant and I am not going to let you walk in unprotected but that's just me. I am not a free person... I may be 25 and have a child but I am more caged than some might seem... I am controlled and surveillance... almost... yeah I am trapped. But, that doesn't mean I don't get out to work when I teach. It's not my son who house-bounds me but other things and it's more of a commitment to helping bc nobody else is willing to do it so it becomes my responsibility. 

I am ready to make a commitment with a person but only time will tell what things lead to and beside dating is like the domino effect when people see people single they seem to think that there is something wrong with you but when you start dating more people will be willing to date you  too... odd way to put it but yeah it's true. So where I am going that when its time to move on and I know it's time to leave the nest because they'll be ok I will. I just need someone to show me they'll be willing to do the same for me. idk but I think it's a compromise... and not a give, give situation when you'll be left with nothing in the end...


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