When I was younger I use to think I was missing a half.. I wasn't complete...and blah blah... But, slowly life started teaching that it wasn't true. That I didn't need someone to make me function as a whole. But, we together would bring each other's light out. Doesn't that sound just beautiful and so unrealistic... hahaha... jk it's not unrealistic it's just that people don't know how to shop around for their soul mate, "love of life" and they seem to get stuck and be unhappy... I guess I'm the fortunate one who has yet to find the light... But, as time passes...my light is burning out and it's not because I don't have some one in my life. I believe we can be single for life and be happy... All I will need is work... and my routine and I am set.
Maybe I don't know how things are done and it's my fault... I guess being old fashion and more traditional is some senses doesn't work well in this time of age...
I think we can honestly for the most part "most part" be happy with anybody but first you have to be compatible ... I don't mean any random person. If you devote enough time and dedication to a person it can happen... but it takes time, patience, love, care, everything you've got to make it work...
When you conform to the fact that you're not happy, you're not going to be happy unless to change something... simple as that... you need to change something... and something has to be big if it's what you really want... But, if it's not and you keep it going your light too will slowly fade away... The shine in your eyes, the smile, the way you act... changes... You know the feeling when you're indifferent... you just live day by day because that's all you got...
It's actually called feeling numb... tearless, painless... and sometimes you just want to know you can feel again... it's never the same... but each time you fall harder and faster on your face... It's a fact of life.
But, picking yourself up is easier because you don't have pieces to mend anymore... your mentality has changed...
One day at a time... one day at a time... *sigh* one day at a time... and nothing can hurt you or cause pain... nothing but your own self...
sorry about the inconsistencies and rambling of nothingness... there's just so much I need to let out... and I don't quite know how or understand how to... it's strange having everything to say and nothing... and I truly mean nothing comes out...
I know title probably doesn't make sense... but it does to me...
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