what i felt was real

I guess it hurts more knowing that all my doubts and 6th sense of things were right. I guess all those tears I was shedding prematurely weren't BC I was loosing him but more like I had already lost him. Life happens and sometimes we can't avoid who we love or move on to. Life gives you an opportunity to try it with somebody you feel would be a better person for you and why not. Its human nature. We are are all people. I mean its a bitch. Like a month or so ago I had to break a heart myself for somebody who wanted me to be the one and I didn't feel the same BC had met someone wonderful. And a few weeks later I'm crying for the same thing. Its life vicious cycle that keeps us on our toes. I've been told that our hearts will break many times before finding the perfect person... *sigh* I guess I had never met someone I thought was worth letting go for and compelled to give up many of my bad habits which i'll be honest I am a better person for. So I guess he brought out the best of me and now I have to figure how to do that on my own. Friends are friends but emotional support sure helped...