Wednesday, October 29, 2008

It's so weird last night I was just in my room just staring at my dark room. I would try and watch tv but everything was too boring for me. I mean there were funny shows but I was being impatient. My sister and I share rooms and she has been trying to go to sleep earlier but I start getting my sensation to clean.... and be a busy bee at night. It's a splurge of a need to clean... I use to have those in college. When things has bad I would spend the whole night cleaning. I Can't here. She needs to sleep and hates the light. I could sleep with light or no light it makes no dufference... I could manage but she can't. Sometimes I get frustrated because I can't sleep but what can I do? And because I don't go to sleep early I am waking up at 8:30 to 9am and that is later and later than I use to wake up. :( Maybe it's because I have drastically changed my eating habits. That might have nothing to do. I changed everything on Sunday which was obviously something big but I actually feel better. I feel a lot better sure the first few days I was lagging it but still couldn't sleep. I wake up and I still feel tired but I have a lot of energy... Of course I dont' jump off the walls like Danny ...hehehe... but I need to get control.  The other day my sis was asking if I got moody because I guess when she tried to do what I'm doing she would be edgy and jumpy and would bite our heads off. But, I told her that it's something I knew I was going to have to do... well she is lucky because she can eat and she gains no weight. She goes from 105-115 and back... it never changes. But, I am determined to change and when I am me, we'll see what happens...  I really write in tangents... I should keep to one subject...hahaha....

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