Just another day... I just put Danny to put for his daily nap. And I woke up not too early but not too late but ready for washing and taking care of business... It's a nice day, the sun is out yet it feels a little chilly outside. The is the best day for me. Today is a good day... thanks! Tomorrow, work and I am hoping it shall be another good day as long as the other half of the kids pay...haha! Man, so I need money. I am tired of hearing the creditor call... I need to fix that asap... I wish I would win lotto, pay it all off and if I am back to square one it would be ok because I at least wouldn't have the debt that's been burdening my everyday... Funny thing is that I at least know that I will be ok in 10 years but it sad to think of it in that way because by then I will have accumulated more debt if I go back to school at I so claim I will. Sometimes I think school was a waste of time then I start thinking and realize that it wasn't. So far it has been a slow start and if I would have been a music teacher like I started out majoring in I would have been teaching somewhere but I took a different route. And although I am always criticized by this person I know I am better doing what I like and I will slowly start getting money. People are making it and what if I just don't want to work hard for little money when I know I could do better. I am not going to settle for less than nothing knowing of the potential we all have. Right now I earn $10 an hour for a while, I guess it's not a bad start but it's only twice a week but then I am going to get paid for being band assistant which I will get paid a lump sum... and on top of that I am teaching private lesson there to. I have 3 jobs in one which I do twice a week. I think it's not too bad... I enjoy all of them and the best part is that 2 of the jobs are paid by the district of Fontana and the other one the kids pay. For me Life isn't better than that although the hard part will be when I will have to start looking for another job if I didn't pass my CBEST. To be honest I am a little nervous to see what my score was. When I left that testing facility  9 days ago I was so confidant I will well and I was happy. I had time to look over my work until tuesday and I went to work. I paraphrased the questions to an the english teacher I work for and we started discussing what I wrote about and then we came to a realization that those writing prompts were a little difficult and I may have not answered them in full as they might have wanted. I am anxious to find out so I can sign up and take it again or start applying to be a substitute. Although a little nervous, I am still keeping my fingers crossed!!!