BC

Stupid BC.... you've been making me spot all month... Damn maybe I should have seen it coming and not even started anything... f... freaking getting checked... that was the only good thing... but started... now I can't stop because my system was normal well ... oddly enough last month it wasnt it came 5 days early which it never does and lasted a day shorter than usual... and I started the BC that week... I mean the good thing is that it's controlled my mood swings and drastic hormonal changes... but now I am spotting...I know I can't stop now... must keep it going because then I'll get lazy again. This is my week without the patch and I am really hoping for it to  hurry... I took it off yesterday and I am very moody today... Sunday again... and I guess it's better to be protected even if you're not actively doing anything than not be protected and something does happen.... life is weird and has it's twists... feeling very sad... bc so many things make me think but trying to stay optimistic and keep my goals for my future so that the next does see what I want and doesn't think I am so complicated or that my life is complicated... I just want a simple kind of life... and nobody sees I can't do it by myself...