Everything happens for a reason

Well I told him how I felt... I know it was the worst timing in the world. And I shouldn't have told him at all but I did and I did it in the most unconventional way which I didn't want to do but it happened and it's done... Well he wanted it that way... and it was bc I couldn't wait so oh well... it was suppose to be different but this way worked...

We did make rules and I did break them so I am responsible but oh well... in a way it was suppose to be like that. I think since when we've been friends we've gotten into pretty into it arguments so stupid disagreements bc we can be stubborn adding all the elements I had just added would have complicated everything. Well I did complicate everything but we fixed it together which is what I dearly admired from him. We were able to talk about it and clear everything else... and fix what I had done... 

I knew he wasn't ready for a person like me but I was truly hoping... I mean life is so funny and ironic bc when he had a thing for me in the past I wasn't ready for him either... I guess that's a karma thing... oh well... hahaha.We'll have good laughed about the one time we had a small thing and decided to not proceed bc of complications.

Even though he and I don't have a future... more than likely... I know I will find somebody but I do have to say that if I do I want who even I find just like him. Somebody who stands for what they want, willing to know when to stop knowing, and someone who is open enough to discuss it all, who is open to know what I like also...

I do want to say that that night was the most wowing display I have ever experienced... With the combination  of things I say that he tops all of them off... maybe because it wasn't about him but more of me... and most are just selfishly think of themselves first... Everything just felt so right ... it wasn't weird... nothing was weird. It was perfect the mood our simple chit-chat and conversations... and most of all our agreement bc he asked right before that all I had to do is say stop but I wasn't going to ...

All I have to say many like him are rare to find ... and I hope I find some one like him in my near future... I truly do! And even though we're not so compatible... 100%  he would still be the perfect match... someday... we will both find our somebody... and sadly it wont we us but like we said no matter what we're still going to be friends... and hang out like we use to... I mean nothing else has changed... except one night but it's okay... 

We're ok!