Danny just woke up and the first thing he said was, "Where's my money, mom... I want my coins" He went to Chuck-e-cheese's yesterday after taking pictures with his dad and his siblings. So I gave him his coins... right now I can honestly say he is the happiest little boy in the world. He wanted to see the pictures so I showed him and he says, "that's Danny, and daddy and Danny and Ray and Daddy and baby Mila". I am so happy he had the opportunity to spend time with his dad because now that he is older he was able to feel something different than he can get here at the house. It is obvious that his dad and I aren't together but he is married to a wonderful girl and they have two kids together. I know Danny had the opportunity to feel loved and return the love his dad. I think he yet doesn't understand the situation being 3 but I think that if we keep the relationship open and we communicate those transitions in the future will not be awkward. After yesterday when he says "daddy" he says it with this love, appreciation... it kind of breaks my heart as much as I am happy for him....why? It makes me happy because he knows he actually has a daddy and it's only grandpa which is daddy as well. Secondly, we he is not going to forget what happened yesterday. What makes me sad is that he hasn't had the opportunity to really know or see his dad much and now he is going to be gone for a while. His dad is a Marine and being deployed to Aghanistan and well we all pray and hope for a safe return but now my son is asking to go to "Ray's house" (his lil half brother) and I mean we can go no problem but he will not be able to see his dad for at 13 months if they are allowed to come back on time.
Yesterday was the 2nd time in his life he went to Chuck-E-Cheese. And, it was an obvious enjoyable
because he can't stop playing with his coins and the little cups. The first time we went he was like 5-6 months almost the age of his baby sis. During that time it was a little boy's birthday but nothing like being with sibblings and getting to play... I hope my son has the opportunity to have with his dad given his dad has time but I think that is the only thing he doesn't or hasn't had as of yet. he doesn't lack love from us in our family and he isn't missing or lacking anything he needs. He has everything a loving and caring family could provide but any small happy moments he can share with his dad would just conclude putting the cherry on top.
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