Well I actually do not have to choose... everything is just fine and dandy... I can't believe after a week of desperation and feeling lost and confused while being a little bombarded... it all paid off to be okay. I know there are times in life where we do not know where to turn or the doubt if we turn to someone will they lend a hand. At times, the people you least expect are the ones to help you out the most. And then those who least expect start coming back. I don't know if I should start cheering now but This year has already had a tough beginning with an awesome follow-up week. I don't know but I am excited. I think by this year's end we'll be a lot better in every way possible.
You know this year for me almost feels like that little dream that every little girl has -to fulfill her dreams. I don't know there are many times where I have my doubts but I know it's time to put those aside and concentrate. We need to make this the year we move up. It's the year we must forget about everything and everyone who is just dangling in the shadows... We need to make this year be the one.

In these last few weeks I think there has been a lot of change in my attitude. There has also been a lot of change in the communication I have with people as well. Let's see in the 2008 year... I was being called, "Senora" which just means equivalent to "Mrs." but tell me, when hear older women and men call you a "Mrs" or "senora" doesn't that make you feel older. It's almost a downer if you know what I mean.... I was feeling quite low because of it. And then I started changing things... the first thing I changed my attitude which subconsciously it's the first thing people start to notice. I also started began wearing my all natural make-up. You know how much a few things change the whole picture... I am being call "senorita" or "miss" and let me tell you that feels great... going from feeling older to young again is the best feeling in the world, well to me... I mean it's hard enough to be only 23 and being called a "senora" and now I turned 24 and I am a "senorita."  I don't know exactly... but I also noticed more things changing. Which I am trying to work at... and it's a lady's thing because sometime we unknowingly put that "F*** off" sign or signal and well that is enough to notice. It's a sign most married women have because they are happily married to their husband. But if there are too many issues the sign starts wearing down and that's when men start hitting on you because they sense your unhappiness... Well single women have the excitement feeling or yearning to be in a relationship... men don't but in order to any way into a girl they kind of have to risk the fact that they might start liking the girl. See what I have noticed in many guys is that they perceive themselves as confidant... some... which is a turn on for most women. They don't like to be seen as weak... so they do not like thinking about love. When they're in love it's a whole different story. But, why is it that guys feel having emotions is weak trait?  And the fact is that when guys are passionate about something like let's say sports... that passion is an emotion but it's not look down upon. The word emotion is crippling to them but why... Can they say, " I have this passion for this girl!" No... it's a very complicated subject... Why is it that men and woman - make emotions and feeling to hard to express? Why is it a weakness to love?