I had kind of given up the option of even considering being a teacher. I don't know if I would want to but I guess it can be an option. With my music degree since I don't quite have a subject I know I can be an elementary teacher. I can... I was kind of waiting on the thought because I wanted another subject so in case I did want to teach at maybe middle school level or high school. I know I'm kind of shy with a room full of people and I get nervous, I can't imagine being one of the many teachers who have loved teacher and were broken down by the student... Eeek ... I know I'm getting ahead of anything but I think for the first time in a long time I can see where my life is starting to go even if it just might be subbing, you know?
So, Yesterday I was at the high school where I do Clarinet sectionals on mondays and every other wednesday I teach lessons on individual basis. I'm in the district (took forever) because I had to get a certificate to be a "coach" (that's what we've called but I teach) from the Commission on Teacher Credentialing (CTC) which I did... The hardest part was getting into the district... it took well over a year the first I applied and that was with the aide of 2 teacher vouching for me and recommending for said jobs...
So those same 2 teacher are asking me to take the CBEST. They were my guides and inspiration in high school, during college and post they have been the 2 who have manage to get me hired tutoring and teaching music... now they're asking I get my CBEST for I can sub. I was kind of hating my self because if I would have had it by now, I could have been closer to getting small jobs... there is no waiting list apparently which means there are some jobs. And more importantly the school needed a Resident Sub available which would be an awesome opportunity and I killed it with not being responsible. Not like I knew but would have had it to help me out. (I would whine and complain about why I don't and why I failed it the first time --- yes, I know... I was stupid and rushed through it too fast) but wont do that again and I'm going to study. It was, and this is why I hate myself I got depressed I didn't pass the easy test so I didn't try again.
I was looking at the date and the next test date is on December 3rd, 2011... which gives me 2 months of heavy studying... One of the reasons I started writing a bit more on xanga was to just practice writing which is (obvious) one of my biggest weaknesses. So I have 2 months to study and once the test is taken then the results come at the end of the month.
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I saw they have a new feature or option (which ever) is to do the reading and math online and I assume the writing is still writing or I don't know if it's typed. The plus of this test option is that I would have the reading and the math immediatly once the test finished. The writing will still take it's time because I'm sure it needs to be read but at least 2 out of the 3 scores would be known.
All I know is I have to study, Study, STUDY!!!!!!!
I'm a really nervous test taker... I'm going to take as many practice test for reading and math to feel comfortable but you any of who have suggestions?
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