A date?

Well, yesterday I was asked out on a date.... this guy has been bugging me for  a while. I'm not attracted to him. he started a few months ago and I told him that I had a different interest and was talking to someone else...  I guess that has fallen apart and it's not an illusion. There was something there but I am mystified anyways that is what it is.... And what bugs me in my mind the most is that I'm so easily able to move on after. I do take time off more than typically especially since the last guy I dated more serious and ended about a year ago. I talk to interesting people, more odd than normal which I love. So, he's been asking me and asking me if I was still talking to so and so person.... and it really came to me if you have to ask yourself if you talking to a person and really question it... either you are and no boundaries are set or you're not and no boundaries were identifiable broken so means you're not? I don't know so I never really responded. I guess the thing is that I let some flirting go to far... but regardless I was just being vague ...
It's not that I was playing hard to get but geez if I was a guy I would have quit. Either he must really like me... or he's obsessed... and right now I'm don't know what he would like because I'm not liking myself currently but that's my issues, or why he would be obsessed which goes in hand with my last issue.... Just like all guys I gone out with they're not people I would really show off ... not that I'm pretty I just don't care about them... and it makes me think that I just shouldn't go... a couple friends have said well it's Knott's scary farm, go and enjoy, it's only a date and no commitment.  I'm broke. So I tried turning  him down with that... and he offered to cover everything. I guess in a sense I've been lucky all guys like to pay even though I like that but I feel bad because at the same time I wouldn't mind paying. If I like a guy, hey I will treat him completely.
The last small date I went out with Jeff before I invited him to  a coffee. haha not much but it was something. He's a music director in Fontana and I work for another director. They're competitive so they mildly dislike each. I'm like an assistant/ slash just there teaching my own thing so he knew I didn't and don't make much... but I tried. He was going to try and pay but I didn't let him. It's small things and I did like him and do like some guys until they suddenly disappear for like month. I don't care if they have lives they can do what they need to and I don't mind typically but don't always expect me to be waiting for them after it if they just say I'm busy with work or I just disappeared and just got back. I've only cared about one person enough to worry regardless but go figures it was the only one who it probably didn't matter. Was all sweet right before departure but something must have changed... which in a sense is good.
So a date isn't a commitment so I don't know. See the thing is that I'm trying to talk my self into it more than trying to talk my self out of it and it shouldn't be that way. I don't know. He wanted my number yesterday and I didn't give it to him. I don't know how people lose number but I have the upper hand. I have his... I have had his for a while. He asked me to text him and I said no... yes, I'm a brat sometimes. I just don't want to lead him on if I don't want to so why text him and let him to think. I never agreed and said I would think about it. He wanted me to text him today and I said I would depending on how I felt. I really didn't feel like dealing with him.
I haven't been in a mood to talk to anyone. I tried to talk to jeff a little but he's always busy. He's doing wrestling, plus all his music classes and he does it all himself because he doesn't trust any one to help (his OCD takes over big time) but we spoke briefly, I knowing how much he works respects his time.
He is one person I messed up with. knowing he liked me since college and let life happen. I wouldn't have gone out with him anyways then. We had been talking for a while online and I never knew he had a gf... well what am I saying I messed up... he did... mine was just a matter of reaction on not being stuck in the situation. Fuck... I'm just rambling now...