I can't believe it's been a year already...

A year ago this lonely girl found herself disappointed with life. The work day didn't go well. A dinner with friends and a meet-up with a friend all back fired. I found myself feeling like the biggest disappointment in the world. Maybe we all have those days or we don't I don't really know but I felt like no one in the world wanted me.

A quick xanga chat changed that up for me really quickly. And you know what I'm happy and blessed it did. I was scared and untrusting... it's my nature. I told myself what the heck, sure why not...

And I met him ...


@cucumber_melonhead ... Can't believe we met a year ago, today!
I met the love of my life, on an evening 11-02-11

I wasn’t sure was could happen if anything. I just knew he kind of liked me. I guess I picked up on his hints. I guess you just never know where you’re going to meet a person that will impact you. And if I have it correctly he’s impacted me more than anyone has in my whole life already.  Well almost haha with the exception of my son… he was definitely a huge impact. Anyways, I was mainly prepared for friendship. God knows how many fail attempts at trying to create relationships and instead finding wrong people who didn’t have good intentions. I’ve had many unhappy moments and my biggest fear is/was hurting people like many have hurt me. It wouldn’t be fair.
I’m usually quiet and sort of shy or was… he said I spoke a lot… maybe I was nervous and couldn’t bare the awkward moments so for once in my life I tried to avoid them. In my mind I was secretly wondering what he was thinking or what he thought of me. Oh well thoughts are always racing all the time.  The mall closed early or it felt like so and I didn’t want to leave. Time was just flying too quickly. I asked him if he wanted to watch a movie with me.  

After that we saw each other every week and texted everyday. And you know what. I don't think that has stopped yet. There have been some instances but it's life and we can't control the whole world but do our best to cope with what we have. To this moment, I never knew I could be this happy. I owe all to him and who he is.
He has gained my trust like no one in the world. He knows everything about me and for once in my life, I'm not scared about that. I guess it feels nice not having to always keep everything until I blow. Besides he knows not to hurts me haha I have 2 bros one is a Marine and the other is about to be. haha jk hun! I can win for myself. ;)
Anyways, this is how we started and how we met. He's earn every way into my heart and the heart of my family. Johnson is a wonderful person and man. I can truly say I've never met anyone like him and hope I will never have to search for someone like him. He's a needle in a haystack and I was fortunate to have met him after well into 26 years of my life... made my whole 27th year a special year. He became my best friend, the man I would love to someday spend the rest of my life with, and for my son to continue learning as much as he has with the love and support of a man. They love each other and that itself always brings happiness, tears of joy and well anything merry you can't think of.
My son is a tough cookie and he fell. Shows us he's a good person. No one ever even had a chance with my boy except for Johnson!