Here we are once again. He has return yet a third time. He might really have some determination to keep coming back over and over. He is once of those who what wants he almost always gets or I don't know. And I mean last time after I felt neglected in a bit I just started talking to the one person who changed my life in a month but that was it. And here he is trying again. So I asked him what he wanted bc at times he just speaks of what he wants like (you know, that) so I asked him is that all you want? And he actually said no that he wanted something more. He wanted a girlfriend. So I asked why was he trying again. I mean I am not that bitchy but like a couple months ago I straight out turned him down and kept saying no. So he tells me he's been really busy... so I tell him that if it were to ever lead to more he can't expect me to let a month or 2 without any communication and expect me to still be around. He admits he has some stuff to work on. I don't know but I told him I would get to know him better. I guess I just admitted to giving him another chance. The sad thing is that I am not too thrilled about it but I guess someone who tries should get a benefit of the doubt. I know he doesn't have a good reputation well he has a pretty bad rep. My sister doesn't like him for sure and will not tell her or ever let her know until and if anything is to happen. The last person I talked to sure wasn't fond at the fact that I talked to him either.... *sigh* I don't know. I mean he has custody of his daughter she is in Kinder right now. He must not be bad if he takes cares of his daughter and she means the world to him. People aren't always perfect but we all deserve a chance I guess. Maybe we all don't all deserve to be completely happy but making someone else happy. I mean I am not making the complete decision of this yet... of course I am not going to pretend to be happy with someone even thought they're happy with me. Just like I would make anybody stick around with me if they weren't happy. It's not fair. And growing up, it's just so much easier to say no but I guess it's been really easy for me my whole life.
I've had my kicks but when it comes down to completely settling, this is something you really have to think through. I really have to think about Danny and not only Danny but that I can be capable to carrying the role as a mother or stepmother to another child. I know it's more common now but it's still something to consider. I mean I am sure it's something that he has thought about and that's another reason he might have me as a potential choice and that he really likes me. This is a little complicated. I guess sometimes we don't always get what we want and sometimes we end up conforming... it might just be a part of life. It is fair? I don't know but only time can tell what happens. Security, I am sure I can have... sacrifices there might have to be a lot.
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