where is everybody when I need them. I feel so sad ... I don't know why but I've been crying since last night...well it I do have a bit of a clue ( ART ) but I don't know why I feel so bad. Last night at work I was hoping to forget about all the troubles at school and it worked but I ended getting other troubles that agitated me. I am starting to dislike him so much . It hurts because another still feels a bit for him. And my heart still doesn't answer stand what the hell is his problem .. I don't miss him and my heart started to move on but I am still vulnerable to pain. But I just don't get it . Why does it hurt do much , why ? I don't understand it , I just don't . I just wish that I had somebody right now that would just let me cry and cry and cry and not judge me . I need a hug . I have had these headaches  that make me want to go to sleep and never wake up . Right now I don't care about anything ... I wish I could go away and be gone . But it suck I cant there is too much stopping me and I hate it for it ....