God has been good

I enjoy going to mass every sunday morning. The three of us go ... Johnson @cucumber_melonhead , my son and I ...

Don't get me wrong there are times where I'm still confused as the one God and there is Jesus (Son of God) and he is the savior and our God but he's not because he's sitting at the right hand of the father. I guess the trinity thing just makes my head hurt over and over. And I read and recite the Nicene Creed every sunday and I hope the it helps and it doesn't when it comes to the trinity. Sure, I shouldn't even think about it but I can't help it.

What will happen when my son is of age and starts wondering, how shall I answer him? he's only 7, but still.

When we go to mass johnson leaves halfway... well doesn't just leave. He's dismissed. He started going to RCIA (Rite of Christian Initiation of Adults) courses at the church where I go to mass, of course in case you didn't know, I'm Roman Catholic.
He's going to go into his 2nd year. He found something within the church that has brought him closer to God and of course We feel that God brought us together. He helps me understand so many things and I know there will be challenges. But, they should make us stronger and united as long as we keep communication.

The end and starting plan of course is to be married. And if it were just up to the state, I think somehow we might be married or not I don't know. But, he wants to get married under the church and have the ritual just like I use to want to as a little girl.

Could I have been blessed anymore? I probably doubt it.
A more special man, there is not. Don't get me wrong he does make me mad at times (And I hope this isn't the first he finds out, and I know I'm at fault too, since it's hard for me to express myself at times. I rather cry it out to myself like it's a tantrum than say something that probably means nothing) ... You know I vowed myself to TRYnot be a nagging person or say stupid things like things that I always use to see girls get mad with their guys. it looks so stupid. I have found myself being as stupid as they act and sometimes I find it unreasonable so why show it to someone so I keep it to myself... yup I do...
I found out that guys don't pay attention to somethings anyways... so it's not all their fault. It's our fault for sometimes having false expectations. But, is it so wrong, at times... to want more? Maybe it is... because  I'm sure they want more at times but don't say anything. And they're not, and so we're not mind readers either.

I hope I never make anyone feel trapped or burdened.
I always pray for patience and understanding. Goodness, do I need it at times!!!
More importantly I give thanks everyday because without life and the challenges I have, I would be nothing or no one.