Life is great! So I dyed my hair on Saturday after I dyed it on friday. Friday was a little lighter but oh well. I went a my son's brother's birthday party and that was fun, Danny had a lot of fun and well so did my sister and I. It's great because it just seems like life is getting better. I have a little money in my pocket every week and everything is beginning to settle. I have realized that I don't need someone to love me in order for me to love myself and it so seems as though I use to rely on acceptance to feel happy. But 2 weeks ago I went to the multi-cultural festival and hung out with my son's aunt, nestor and luis. It was a lot of fun just to hang out and walk around. But, the most amazing thing was the indian dancers. They inspire me every year I see them. WOW! I have always been a pessimist in my life but lately  I have been seeing all the beauty in what life is, in how lonelyness, deception, heart-ache can leave to a beautiful life on comprehension and relief. Sometimes one must take out all the bad suffer for a while and realize that we were ok after all. The fact is that we are not going to die if one person isn't in our lives we will continue to move forward whether we want to or not. Life doesn't stop. Life is a commitment not many are willing to express and well I am committing my self now that I will continue to live a day by day happy life. NO more thinking of a future that I can't guess about. No more thinking about the past that screwed me up and over many times.  My life is now and helping those I can around me. I cannot control anything else but what is in my path (truth). I will either mold, destroy or discard what is not needed and everything else will just go in my pocket and be placed in a box with my other junk. Let it sit around to give it value and then refurnish!