well last night I had a wonderingful dream...but like I said it was a dream. Well I dreamed first of all that I was sad but then I saw these 2 beautiful baby boys. I had had twins.. they were so cute and and I was very excited. My mom was very protective of the. Them one day my ex comes around and tell my mom that he wants to talk to me but she says that he owes her money and he sid that he would pay as long as he got to talk to me but he still didn't want anything with the babies . But then I went to them and he followed, he saw hoe beautiful they were and became excited. He was so happy about them that he wanted to to start spending more time with them. That was the happiest moment of m life to see his smile with our children and be happy to be a parent. I this dream was a very happy moment but then I woke up. I realize that I am not having twins and besides it would probably be financially harder for me. But to see those 2 babies faces still in my mind makes me feel happy but sad b/c I still have to face reality. * sigh*