a-ok

All in all what is there to complain about? Life is good... life is great actually. Sometimes in the mists of all the happiness there is still something within making you feel a little sad. I do not what it is. It has nothing to do with people. My son and I are way better than ever. We're able to communicate a lot more than we ever were. He is starting to understand and listen.
Everybody is taken. My bro O that kept just dating, sexing, or talking to girls finally found a girl who he for the first time in his life brings around.
So for about 9 days my bro R was home after bootcamp and there were 3 couple.... the only ones missing were my sis and her bf. It was nice but very tiring. So many people in the house and I'm still getting use my sister-in-law and nephew living with us. I've never been much of a people person. Sometimes being around people overwhelms me way too much. I haven't felt like I live my in my house unless I'm in my room and of of late I'm spending less and less time in my room so you can imagine, I feel sometimes a bit weird in my own home.
Sometimes I wonder if something is wrong with me. I'm happy. I'm excited about life. It's just that in my little  down times that I start thinking a little. And I hate thought of thinking. I know how horrible that sounds. Babe, I'm ok, so don't worry.
Oh yea, we got this little kitten. He's white and we're calling him "Milky" he's about 4 weeks and he's so cute and adorable! He wakes me up very early because he's hungry and then goes right back to sleep after eating.
I've been wanting to sleep more and more... lately. Sometimes it feels as if I don't sleep enough and I'm starting to sleep later in the day and it makes me sad I wake up to tired in the mornings. Like I even want to take a nap and start falling asleep and then I feel very very guilty, like I shouldn't or it's not right. I sometimes don't want to do anything. I know I shouldn't be like that. I should be motivated, up and runnin' (perhaps literally) but *sigh* it aint true... the more and more I think ... I think we're going to start taking walks because I'm hating it. Yes, it. I'm seeing myself and the less and less I'm happy with me. Everything else is perfect. But, I see myself and it's not worthy of all  this happiness I have.
oh so excited about going to MN in 2 weeks. My cousin is getting married, it's about time I'd say but it's not like she's that older than I am, only a year and a half. I guess we all take time to find a person. I suppose marriage should be something that you thoroughly think about.