So I guess the age does feel a little different this time. I am officially in my mid 20s leading to my late 20s but the odd thing as I is as I start to feel old because of the number.... I still feel as alive or more as when I was 17... I feel as though I didn't start living until this last year. It's almost as if I had been dead for such a long time and now even though life sucks and there is nothing to do and very little money I feel alive. The good thing at 25 is that my insurance rates go down.... yay! (such a nerd) but it's true. Although, I have a ticket from Oct 2008 which means I have another year in a half for it to clear. But regardless I think I have a pretty good driving record.  Danny is now 4 so he allows a me a little more time for me which I really need. Oh and the plus side of that is he gets to go to school in  July. I am excited and he is excited too but he really has his hopes up to go to Music School.... it was so cute last night because my sister came over and Danny was running about  in his undies and well all of a sudden he got dressed and  put on his back-pack... packed it with his drumsticks and told my sister that he was ready to go to music school. I think it's adorable he wants to learns music so badly but it makes me a little scared that he will reject regular school becuase it's not to his expectations.... I don't know but I guess it's something we all learn to deal with. Lately he has been drawing a lot of Happy faces and he is starting to understand a little more when I say no but it's really hard sometimes. He can be a really tough cookie.

Last niight we were all watching movies well except him because I sent him to sleep. And I think it was like 3 in the morning and I learn little quiet sobbing... so I go and check on him and he was crying softly. I didn't understand... he never cries like this before... he is usually very dramatic about the way he cries and want every body to know he is upset and unhappy. So I asked him what was wrong and he didn't say anything... so I give him a hug and give him a kiss... I do "the cross" for him so he gets peace and he lays down. I think he thought I left him or something because we sleep together and I wasn't there... I don't know but it made me sad seeing him cry like that.

Anyways I am a little excited about this week... I am hoping I am busy! It's about time school starts. I am a little frightened and scared for one of my brothers thought... he has no school tomorrow welll he does but he has court early morning.  Boys will be boys and sometimes a little stupid. I hope that the judge takes  his case and doesn't sent it a level higher like the cop said it might. God help up all... we're all strugglin' and aint getting easier but we're trying....