Well I have been having the wordt moodswing ever , I don't know what my problem is but I feel Anger a lot , A LOT of ANGER. I don't know why but I also fell a lot peace but I can't find a correlation to both of them .I know I am a nice person but lately I feel like a bitch . I bitch to everybody , I act like a bitch and I really careless what you think . Although one thing is I cant cry , I just can't cry. I feel mad about that because crying use to be  my way out of feelings and everything is inside . I cant explain my situation but nobody understand but me . It's the only logic that I have even though it's bad , I don't think so. Oh ...Fuck that!
On other terms I just brought these 4 lil' fishies and I love them . Theyare the best , they don't annoy , they just swin and forget every few seconds that they exist and get hungry again . :)  So Right now I am debating within myself if I want the car or not , b/c if I don't that means I have lost $200 but if I do then I have a credit , I am so confused , I don't know what I want anymore ... there is nothing to want ,but I want the work though , so I dont' know think that through .