evening ... :/

I do thank goodness my mom was right there. It was so strange everything was getting  a bit blurry with black edges. And she calls my dad... I didn't quite know what was going on but it was a strange helpless feeling...My mom says I was about to faint and I was very pale.They  helped me from the kitchen to the living room. And then... I started a really sound statically sound...it started getting louder... That was the weirdest thing in the world. But I went to go buy some groceries right before and took one of my brothers and Danny bc Danny really wanted a sandwich. And the whole time there I just wanted to throw up but I know I couldn't. This is all so weird...

My parents want to take me to the doctor but there is no point right now. I mean we don't have the money and I don't need another thing on my record. I can't pay it and I am sure it will go away. I told my mom if I still feel sick them thursday bc I have to work so we can go after... idk but I mean friday I have to go to a deposition. Opposing side will ask questions and take my testimony... it's annoying...

My mom going to bed said if you need to go to the dr just call me bc you coming will take longer... just call...

I hate to see them worry so much... I don't need them stressed  but I am also not faking...and Danny just keeps giving me lots of hugs and kisses... a lot lol I have been bombarded and I am not use to so much affection but it's sweet he cares and tries to help mommy while she is sick