So, yeah... I fixed the refrigerator at my house on monday... I spend all morning and part of my afternoon just playing with it and teaking it... I mean it couldn't work any less... no ice was being made everything had already gone bad so I didn't have anything to loose except for it to completely shut off then that would mean we actually needed a new one... So like I said I just took a few screws out, moved here and there and it seems as though it's been working fine since then. When I turned it on I had my doubts and I was scared especially for the milk so I still left it in the freezer and tuesday morning it was frozen we had ice...yay! It's so hot we need a nice cold drink of water and we have it now. My dad came in right now and said, "How's it working?" as he opens the door... "How much do I owe you?" I laugh and said, "Dad, it's only temporary" I am still expecting it to break down for some reason... I don't know anything about refrigerators. I guess I lucked out or something. Now I am starting to wonder how much he paid that guy that didn't really fix it. No, I am not going to ask him to pay me but all that means is that he didn't deserve what he got paid to do... I guess I'll see how the frig is doing in a few days... so I am thinking about going into the business...HAHAHA! just kidding... well actually I started doing Massages... my mom has been teaching me a little of that work and I have done it to her. Yesterday I earned $40... and lucky for me that is how much I pay for insurance and I'm going to pay it... But it's not what she regularly does... She mostly does physical therapy or massage therapy... but she thought me how to do another type of massage and it's to loose inches in the body. She does it done a while back she lost a lot and she is still loosing more. Well She told me that she is going to start getting more customers in that area so I can do it. She told me that, that line of work is more tiring than relieving stress and I didn't believe her yesterday even though I massage her an hour and a half. I felt great yesterday... it was until this morning that I felt sore and tired but still ok... So, I guess besides my part time of teaching music I will so my FLP and massaging... Then I will look for another full time... it's good. A full time and a few part times... that should resolve my money problems... oh yeah and fixing friges...lol...jk/jk...

It's funny how the stress of having the lack of money still appears. Even though a long time I ignored that huge burden coming within it feels like it's starting to consume me again.  I know that sometimes we cannot avoid not having money because as many know it comes with having a lack of a job and even though I am going to start working in a month again it still will not be enough. It sucks because now I only have a total of $5 period and well since our fridge is broken I will probably use them to buy a half gallon of milk for later. Well lucky for me I at least have a $25 weekly allowance from teaching a lesson but sadly it's not enough. I do wish to pursue so a job but I guess that means re-applying to many of those jobs that I already applied for. Does re-applying define desperateness to have a job. I mean can't people really understand that people sometimes really needs a job and will bend backwards just for a chance. I mean without  a doubt I believe that any job I find cannot be harder than having to learn how to do everything for a child having no experience... Now that's jumping the gun... so can an easy task of ringing off people and bagging their items be so complicated only a few are bound to the the necessity skills to obtain just a glamorous job? I think not. It's cashiering, that's it. I hope next year will be a busy one because with the looks of it... and with luck I am going to be working my regular part time at the school and hopefully a full time... And luckily for me that will only fulfill the requirements to be ok paying off my school loans so I can start applying to go to school again... Life sucks man.... Today I couldn't sleep in the morning because I just kept thinking about money. I ask my self, "How can I get money?", "Where can I get money?" , "easy quick scheme?", "hahaha, they don't work!" All I could think about it is money. But the fun part of being a parent is that my kids will never know... and the ironic thing is that my parents still don't understand either. I don't know if I ever wrote about how peaceful I had it the other day with no complaints will I have one today.... MY MOTHER!

Tias b day- They were written through my phone what is why there were 2 blogs

Well today was nice and self fulfilled in its own way. It was my aunt's birthday yesterday but we celebrated it today. So as a good supportive family we went to her house and well my sis and i started drinking a little bit. For the first time it felt relaxed well i guess because my sis was there. Well we franks one beer and ate as we drank the second. Everytime we would finish we would be asked if we wanted another. Well we ate tortas augadas which were good. As soon as we finished eating we drank our third but i knew i had to stop because i was driving and i'm always the safety patrol. Anyways we enjoyed out third in the front yard peacefully. It was nice! They but the cake and my sis drank her fourth. We sat in the living room for a while and some one with the scent of cigarettes passed by and we both had the same inclination. We stopped, looked at each and just knew what each other were thinking. But, we didn't think to ask. A little while after almost forgetting of our small craving we all left for home.Well as i drove home. We were enjoying the sudden flash of thelightning as Danny would shout he saw fire works. We got  home andwith the craving still there we smoked Djarum Blacks. We just stood inour driveway and stared at a half starry and half cloudy sky. Weenjoyed a few light shows. Very enjoyable until my sis she lost herbeer buzz. She lost her but i was getting more with my ciggies. Everysmall craving satisfied. . . So peaceful! Adieu and to all a goodmight. . .

What is your stance on religion? Are you a religious person?

Well like many people I sometimes have my doubts about whether there is a God and why things happen to them and not others. But luckily not many real bad things have happened to my family all too much while other families to suffer. See I am Catholic but for a while I was distancing my self for my own personal reasons but I feel that when we all pray together things start to get better no matter how bad things are. When we unite as a family our prayers get answered. And I am not saying that bad things happen to those who don't believe but I noticed that those who are not as aware of His surroudings take more things for granted and it seems as though noticeable bad things happen to them more often sadly enough... I belive in religion and I am slightly religious person...

  
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What would make a perfect day?

I think my perfect day would be being to cook and bake for all who I love while they watch the baby. Then eat and watch movies... A nice relaxed day... oh yeah, and have someone else wash the dishes and clean the kitchen... that would be a perfect day... or a day in the park with a picnic and the family...

  
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What do you take for granted in life?

I feel I take the roof on my head, my family and everything I've been able to achieve a little for granted. You know just having them sometimes isn't enough and the truth is that everything is there and at any given moment it can all dissapear... One more thing, I think I take happiness for granted all too much as well...

  
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How do you feel about adoption of children by same sex couples?

Well I believe that all people are capable of giving a child the love and care they need. And since many most same sex couples are not able to have children with each other it is only fair that they give the love they have to the kids they would have had. There are many kids out the who need a home, who need some support, who need love and who need to be shown that they can do something with their lives. We as parents are just guides to help our kids the right path to achiving their dreams and goals. Who is to say that another man or a woman isn't. It's just like adoption, is we are able to adopt and show be can up bring them well and a same-sex couple is willing to do the same? What would be the difference? Nothing. The chils will see the sacrifice and love received... IT shouldn't make a difference!

  
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