Sunday, December 7, 2008
wow... I woke up so late... it was almost 11am... actually the funny thign was my mom woke me up on my phone because she wanted me to late my dad to some health fair in Rancho. I ended up going with my dad, Danny, and my 2 brothers. It was alright. We had a glucose blood test done and we all got Flu shot except Danny and now my arm is sore. Well grandpa had his services yestrday and the place was full. It was an open castet and well it was very sad and they fixed him up really nice... The way grandpa looked the last few days before and on the day he died... would have made more people cry. All my uncles from here all went except one and nobody understands why? It was a nice service but I was recording for my aunt... Sigh
Saturday, December 6, 2008
So when we were on our way to my aunt's house to pray... my mom received a call and it was one of the people she truly considers a friend, Nico. And I guess there were issues with her marriage so that's that and well she is selling Tamales to make some little income. I asked my mom who it was and when she told me I said yes. I wanted some... well not only so I love them but since it was her... I like to help out because she took care of us when we were little and we can't forget that she taught my mom how to cook as well. 
Well either way we told her we would call her back because we were about to pray. Well we were in there and when we got out we were all tired and it was 9pm. We were determined that we were going to come home and sleep but we decided we wanted to pay her a small visit get some tamales to help her out and come back home. So we were on 6th and Grove and I was a little confused of where I was until I remembered that 6th take me to montclair so I went down the street so then I turn on my phone navigator to lead me to her street well it was doing a good job and I was going ... it had me go through Holt and I was driving down the street and then I see protesters "No a los Retenes" and I was a little confused until I see a huge light say have youro lisense ready, registration and insurance... it was a check point and for some reason I am always a little eerie of them and never go through them so I turned around. I have always had the luck to have enough time to turn back around. So I went down Ramona and into the 60 Freeway. I get off on Garey and turned on Franklin her street... well we saw a parked car in front of her house and we thought she had visitors but her lights were off so we didn't think much of it... we turned into the street passing her house so we can turn back and park... That car looked empty and so I pull right in front of it and then start backing up to park right in front since they can back up I didn't mind getting inches close to the car but then I see there was 2 men in the car and I thought it was weird because they weren't visible until then. I keep backing up next to the dark brown/ gray looking Wagon and I see then looking at her house and then looking at my mom's truck as it gets closer well all of a sudden I see a form a panic expression but they sped off as I got nearer. And I though why did they leave and felt weird but then I told my mom there was 2 men in there and she asked if in the car and I told her yes and at that moment they left and I just point for her to see but it was a little far. They had the lights off so I told my mom to car her so she was awake and we would go in really quick. My mom mentioned that she left a strong negative energy come from the speeding car... They come and open the gate and we asked if they knew about the car... They said it had been there for over an hour even as her 22 year old son came into the house they had been posted... Weird! I told them if they are ever suspicious call the cops... better be safe than sorry. But until now that car still worries me. She needs to be very care. I don't know why they ran... maybe because it was a dark black 4-runner looking car... were they scared... were they going to do something bad and we messed up their plan... We dont' know but I think it was a good thing we went over at the time we did...
Anyways, so then we go in and I was in her kitchen and she asks me, " ( It translate to are you craving sopes or in better way would you like some sopes)Se te antojan los sopes" and I looked at her weird immediately remembering when I was pregnant and went to her house because I was craving her sopes and I was going to tell her but I didn't have the guts to. So I told her no thank Danny is enough and no I am not pregnant again... which was a weird response... she scared me. I don't know why. So her son then asked me well that weird... so you don't want any? I said Any what? Sopes... I was like she has some? He replied yes... so I was confused and finaly did get some but since I was just expecting the tamales... It was so weird... I was being defensive and standoffish... it was weird... But we had a good night right there... and right as we start leaving their house there i a shit load of cops every where... they are stopping people left right... and even as we were leaving there were just 3 cops there ... She does live in a bit isolated spot next to the cementary but it's a big street so I don't know... we yeah. Anyways I have to stat doing my hair now because otherwise I am never going to finish it alll...
Well either way we told her we would call her back because we were about to pray. Well we were in there and when we got out we were all tired and it was 9pm. We were determined that we were going to come home and sleep but we decided we wanted to pay her a small visit get some tamales to help her out and come back home. So we were on 6th and Grove and I was a little confused of where I was until I remembered that 6th take me to montclair so I went down the street so then I turn on my phone navigator to lead me to her street well it was doing a good job and I was going ... it had me go through Holt and I was driving down the street and then I see protesters "No a los Retenes" and I was a little confused until I see a huge light say have youro lisense ready, registration and insurance... it was a check point and for some reason I am always a little eerie of them and never go through them so I turned around. I have always had the luck to have enough time to turn back around. So I went down Ramona and into the 60 Freeway. I get off on Garey and turned on Franklin her street... well we saw a parked car in front of her house and we thought she had visitors but her lights were off so we didn't think much of it... we turned into the street passing her house so we can turn back and park... That car looked empty and so I pull right in front of it and then start backing up to park right in front since they can back up I didn't mind getting inches close to the car but then I see there was 2 men in the car and I thought it was weird because they weren't visible until then. I keep backing up next to the dark brown/ gray looking Wagon and I see then looking at her house and then looking at my mom's truck as it gets closer well all of a sudden I see a form a panic expression but they sped off as I got nearer. And I though why did they leave and felt weird but then I told my mom there was 2 men in there and she asked if in the car and I told her yes and at that moment they left and I just point for her to see but it was a little far. They had the lights off so I told my mom to car her so she was awake and we would go in really quick. My mom mentioned that she left a strong negative energy come from the speeding car... They come and open the gate and we asked if they knew about the car... They said it had been there for over an hour even as her 22 year old son came into the house they had been posted... Weird! I told them if they are ever suspicious call the cops... better be safe than sorry. But until now that car still worries me. She needs to be very care. I don't know why they ran... maybe because it was a dark black 4-runner looking car... were they scared... were they going to do something bad and we messed up their plan... We dont' know but I think it was a good thing we went over at the time we did...Anyways, so then we go in and I was in her kitchen and she asks me, " ( It translate to are you craving sopes or in better way would you like some sopes)Se te antojan los sopes" and I looked at her weird immediately remembering when I was pregnant and went to her house because I was craving her sopes and I was going to tell her but I didn't have the guts to. So I told her no thank Danny is enough and no I am not pregnant again... which was a weird response... she scared me. I don't know why. So her son then asked me well that weird... so you don't want any? I said Any what? Sopes... I was like she has some? He replied yes... so I was confused and finaly did get some but since I was just expecting the tamales... It was so weird... I was being defensive and standoffish... it was weird... But we had a good night right there... and right as we start leaving their house there i a shit load of cops every where... they are stopping people left right... and even as we were leaving there were just 3 cops there ... She does live in a bit isolated spot next to the cementary but it's a big street so I don't know... we yeah. Anyways I have to stat doing my hair now because otherwise I am never going to finish it alll...
Thursday, December 4, 2008
right now I just feel like I just want a truck to run over me and I don't care... I just want to go to sleep and never wake up. I just want to rest forever. My left kidney hurts and it bugging me... I am not thirsty and I am not hungry... I just don't have an appetite and I just feel a little weak... my eyes just want to sleep and sleep but I can't. Sadly... I haven't even had time to take a shower since either monday night or tuesday morning...frankly I don't remember. I know it's kind of gross but fuck it... life sometimes just happens to be like that. It's like I want to dress up and look nice but I just don't have time. These past 2 days I've been going to Lake Elsinore and doing a little bit of work through a person's house and I leave in the morning and come back in time to go to my aunt's house. I have no me time... or anything. I haven't really watched tv these last few days... Everything irritates me... and I know I am just snapping at people or I think so... but I don't know what i have. I'm just annoyed at every little thing. You know something that does worry me thogh is everybody that are going to go take my grandpa's body next. It makes me really sad that my sis is going to be in Mexico for Danny's b-day but oh well... I am sure they will all be back on friday night... saturday.... I don't know. I know right now we can't afford anything but still...
well sometimes things happen
Well, just as we thought that some things just are low and tight... Well I think my dad just got laid off... and the stupid thing is that he got hurt while working... I am actually really fucking mad about this. So Mad I can't even think straight. This only means it's time... I guess I have been doing jobs and I get paid good at what I do but since there is always necessities... I would never save it up like in a pay check where they hold it and it accumulates. I don't know what to do.... I feel like this happening and my grandpa dying is really going to mess up with my dad... I have a feeling he's going to be depressed again and I don't like it when it's like that... I just want to scream... yeah, thanks life... kick him while he is even lower.... oh yeah and FUCK YOU!!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
sigh...tired going to bed...
long day today and it's going to be a long day tomorrow...
work in Lake Elsinore...
Services are this Saturday December 6, 2008
Simpson Family Mortuary
1557 W. Baseline St.
San Bernardino, Ca 92411
5:00-5:30pm only family viewing
5:30-6:00pm all is welcomed
6:00pm -7:00pm Rosary
7:00-8:00pm Mass
8:00-9:00 Good-byes
long day today and it's going to be a long day tomorrow...
work in Lake Elsinore...
Services are this Saturday December 6, 2008
Simpson Family Mortuary
1557 W. Baseline St.
San Bernardino, Ca 92411
5:00-5:30pm only family viewing
5:30-6:00pm all is welcomed
6:00pm -7:00pm Rosary
7:00-8:00pm Mass
8:00-9:00 Good-byes
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
SO I still haven't figured out what I am going to do... I still don't know what I want to say or need to say. We're having a rosary for my grandpa's death today. But, there is no surprised there because everytime we would go we would pray with him or for him.. I don't know. There is a lot on my mind but there is nothing that comes out. When he died I went blank. My mom told me and I teared up but I didn't cry. When I went over I cried very minimal. I did get to see him and well I prayed and gave thanks for relieving him of his pain. It was hard but I felt thankful and very peaceful...I don't know but we're leaving soon!
So I went and worked with the RSD and made phone calls and business.... maybe he's checking out to be his secretary but that would be great if it is and if not this part time it's ok...
So I went and worked with the RSD and made phone calls and business.... maybe he's checking out to be his secretary but that would be great if it is and if not this part time it's ok...
a hard evening for all
Grandpa died at around 8:20-8:30pm last night December 1, 2008...
that is all for now...
that is all for now...
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