Well today is finally friday and it's Spring Break .....YAY! But either way my spring break started yesterday but it's ok because I rested and still woke up early 9:30 am . Well I didn't go on my date tonight because he blew out a tire of his car and has been using his mom's but either I am just at school relaxing. I actually got to eat Dinner with Keith and Chris  I was so shocked as you can't even imagen.Well Ramiyah , Adrian ,Nestor and Luis all left today and I was kind of bored but I am happy that they are on their way to go visit their parents. I , myself , have not decided what I am going to do but yeah . I was looking foward to gooing out but hey whatever. Well I dressed up pretty but whatever.Hopefully I get to find out more about David this spring break by the way he speaks to me it sounds like . I like him , he thinks a lot and I think he is going to know how to make me happy . We have made this connection and I like talking to him. It feels like a liltle crush and you get embaress or shy when you talk but  HEY .... I Am still the same person with David , those of you that think I am nice with one person and mean to another well not !!!!! I Am mean to everybody.

Well monday I went on a date with David and wow it was perfect except that we almost got in a car accident but that didn't ruin it . He came here to Redlands to pick me up and we went to the movies but there were no movies at that time until like 6:45 and we got there ar 5:30 so we decided to go eat at sizzlers and we talked . I didn't know he had an A.A. for computer junk but I was impressed i think he said that he went to ITT I think . But he works doing computer stuff in Palms Springs everyday. When we were walking back to go see the movie he slowly gets my hand and starts to hold it . I thought it was the sweetest thing . I really felt comfortable with him. When we were at the movies he was just holding my hand and caressing it . It actually felt right , i don't understand but it's just weird because when he was caressing my hand I was starting to get a few butterflies in my stomach. I don't but there is something about him that I really like . I guess we had a conenction since the beginning which was when we went to Knott's scary farm in October but i was not ready because it hadn't been a month since the break up. He held my hand there for protection from the monsters. i thought it was sweet. i don't I guess i have to start giving chances but trusting is still a bit skeptical. I don't know if all guys are the same . i truly wish that they are not .But either way David   and I are going out on friday . I think I am going to have fun . I am going to have to practice cooking over spring break. I need to get my cooking up and running again and rememeber how to combine my spice to make sauces just like I like them . Oh yeah , David says that he can cook .... that's a plus . :) And another plus I finally found sombody that is actually older than me . I remember when I was younger I use to say that I was never going to go out with anybody that was younger than me , they at least had to be in my grade but I guess that fell through when I was Art's girllfriend for 3 years but I have no regrets but I learn a lot about immaturity so that is a real turn off to me . But David is 20 years also his birthday is in october and that makes him like 3 months older than me but he is older so that makes me happy. I feel so comfortable with him but I can't stare at him in his eyes for a long time ... I get scared, but I don't know why . It makes me feel nervous and I hate that feeling . I could usually lie about certain expressions but I don't think I could hide it . We talked about weird people and stuff and I told him the truth but we just said that we will find out as we go along ...lol because I said that I was a very weird person sometimes . He is church oriented too , and I like that. He asked me if I went to chuch and I said no but it wasn't a bad thing. He must be Catholic because he said his cross when he was about to eat .I don't know but I am just trying to figure him out . And I will I like mystery , I like to find out and so far I have a lot to learn because as of now all I know is that he use to work at McD's and that he had a gf there and I know that b/c I remember , his first name , that he has an associates degree , when his birthday is , who some of his friend are , where he lives . I think that is it but hmm but most of that was stuff that I already knew prior to the date . I know that I Am freak but that is who I am . Maybe during spring break he can meet my mom and dad ....maybe or I will just tell them that I am leaving but who knows there is still half a week to decide about that but I had tried to schedule early hours so that we can go out in the afternoon . I am finally thinking that I might have a chance at moving on . 
I feel free but today when I was hearing a song I thought of Art and I started to cry ... I still kind of miss him but I feel sorry for him . Even though he is a very close friend of mine he is a very stubborn person and I worry about his fututre but I guess that is not much of my worry anymore. I dont know what to say about him but that he will always be in my heart and that regardless of that I have let go and he is gone .

wow my throat hurts and it is 4:45 I have to be up and in front of watchorn in 45 min and I can't sleep.I look a mess but regardless of what my body feels I am happy. Everything is almost ok so w/e.

february 16th ...a day late but Happy Birthday Yeni (18) and Art (19) , Feb . 13th  Fernando Escobedo (19) and Feb.9 Justine (18)
Well yeah I am so tired but hey it's almost the weekend YAY ! time to work.  Work , work, work ... we don't rest until the day we die!

Well Valentine's day is officially over now , good. It was my forst time in 3 years without a Valentine but on the bright side nestor gave me a purple tiger . It was very very cute , I loved it . Work at Plaza was insane I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs and hit some people . i don't ask for much . I am not a picky person I just want to be understood . I just want somebody I can talk to about my problems  and somebody that I can do the same for . I don't care . I just want all my friends there for me and who cares about the world. The world is just an outside issue that I yet don't want to have to deal with it .  Oh my ex , called me he had classes today for the first time HA ! on Valentine's day his day ended at 9:30 and mine started at 9:30 am and ended at 11pm but the sad thing was that he sounded really tired . We have become really close friends . We talk every once in a while on the phone not that often but we have learned how to have conversations and actually talk like adults. I am beginning to respect him again as him . I respect him as a friend but as a person it could be a whole diffeent story. I am very happy with myself though because I am learning how to be the bigger person and realize human error and that most people can't help doing what they do . Forgiving them for their mistakes is basically all we can do and besides our consciences feels better .
 OH By the way !!!!!!! I hate to work so if anybody is rich and they want to marry me , I'll love to .... just kidding . As much as I hate working I like the feeling of earning and wasting my own money not others.
Well what else can I say but good night and I hope that everybdy had a great Valentine's Day and that hopefully everyday is a Valentine's Day with your loved one. Best Wishes to all with there " one" .
 I know my prince will come and rescue me soon.

well Ia m  at school now. I fixed all my problems . The lady from the AMS payments had been a bitch to me but I figure I would smile and say just ok to all her rude comments b/c I would never ever hae to see her again ...how do I know b/c she basically told when she said to try getting the payments again ,the school would cancel my account. Oh well. But I was happy that I was able to get classes and stuff b/c for a while I was kind of scared but everything worked out and I am excited. School for me right now is all going very well.
 Well so I finally turned 20 on the 7th of January , I think that was an exciting ay exce[t fpr the fact that I had to work but overall I made the most of my day.Almost all my friends called and it made me feel special.The day of my birthday I felt loved by all.Even when I walked into work evrybody I need literally EVERYBODY screamed out HAPPY BIRTHDAY REYNA ..... I was very happy.
My life right now feels great . I can't ask for anything else ...well yeah I can I wish I had a special somebody to share my feeling with but I know I am going to have to wait until that special somebody appears in my life. My life right now just feels so perfect that I don't feel right without a boyfriend but maybe that is just the way that I had been use to oh well. I am pretty that there is a guy out there for me in that far away state that I want to leave to after college. Finding a romantic ,loving yet real guy , that understands but is also dominant but will let me also let me talk, kind of guy is going to be a challege but I give or take a few of the qualities I just want to be happy and I want to make somebody happy too.

A girl and guy are speeding over 100 mph on the road on a motorcycle...
Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, it's too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you, but slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):
...A motorcycle crashed into a building last night because of break failure. Two people were involved, a male and a female, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the 18-year-old boy realized that his breaks had broken, but he didn't want to let his partner know. Instead, he made her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, and let her wear his helmet so that she would live, realizing he would be the one that would die. If there's anyone you love this much, re-post this in your journal.
omg i red ths and wanted to cry then i listened t my immortal then i really did cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dammit